ungand what else on earth was he doing！
Methodically； as had been the way of his whole life； he now arranged his time。 On Tuesdays he journeyed up to town by train； Irene came and dined with him。 And they went to the opera。 On Thursdays he drove to town； and； putting that fat chap and his horses up； met her in Kensington Gardens； picking up the carriage after he had left her； and driving home again in time for dinner。 He threw out the casual formula that he had business in London on those two days。 On Wednesdays and Saturdays she came down to give Holly music lessons。 The greater the pleasure he took in her society； the more scrupulously fastidious he became； just a matter…of…fact and friendly uncle。 Not even in feeling； really； was he morefor； after all； there was his age。 And yet； if she were late he fidgeted himself to death。 If she missed coming； which happened twice； his eyes grew sad as an old dog's； and he failed to sleep。
And so a month went bya month of summer in the fields； and in his heart； with summer's heat and the fatigue thereof。 Who could have believed a few weeks back that he would have looked forward to his son's and his grand…daughter's return with something like dread！ There was such a delicious freedom； such recovery of that independence a man enjoys before he founds a family； about these weeks of lovely weather； and this new companionship with one who demanded nothing； and remained always a little unknown； retaining the fascination of mystery。 It was like a draught of wine to him who has been drinking water for so long that he has almost forgotten the stir wine brings to his blood； the narcotic to his brain。 The flowers were coloured brighter； scents and music and the sunlight had a living valuewere no longer mere reminders of past enjoy…ment。 There was something now to live for which stirred him continually to anticipation。 He lived in that； not in retrospection； the difference is considerable to any so old as he。 The pleasures of the table； never of much consequence to one naturally abstemious； had lost all value。 He ate little； without knowing what he ate； and every day grew thinner and more worn to look at。 He was again a 'threadpaper'； and to this thinned form his massive forehead； with hollows at the temples； gave more dignity than ever。 He was very well aware that he ought to see the doctor； but liberty was too sweet。 He could not afford to pet his frequent shortness of breath and the pain in his side at the expense of liberty。 Return to the vegetable existence he had led among the agricultural journals with the life…size mangold wurzels； before this new attraction came into his lifeno！ He exceeded his allowance of cigars。 Two a day had always been his rule。 Now he smoked three and sometimes foura man will when he is filled with the creative spirit。 But very often he thought： 'I must give up smoking； and coffee； I must give up rattling up to town。' But he did not； there was no one in any sort of authority to notice him； and this was a priceless boon。
The servants perhaps wondered； but they were； naturally； dumb。 Mam'zelle Beauce was too concerned with her own digestion； and too 'wellbrrred' to make personal allusions。 Holly had not as yet an eye for the relative appearance of him who was her plaything and her god。 It was left for Irene herself to beg him to eat more； to rest in the hot part of the day； to take a tonic； and so forth。 But she did not tell him that she was the a cause of his thinnessfor one cannot see the havoc oneself is working。 A man of eighty…five has no passions； but the Beauty which produces passion works on in the old way； till death closes the eyes which crave the sight of Her。
On the first day of the second week in July he received a letter from his son in Paris to say that they would all be back on Friday。 This had always been more sure than Fate； but； with the pathetic improvidence given to the old； that they may endure to the end； he had never quite admitted it。 Now he did； and something would have to be done。 He had ceased to be able to imagine life without this new interest； but that which is not imagined sometimes exists； as Forsytes are perpetually finding to their cost。 He sat in his old leather chair； doubling up the letter； and mumbling with his lips the end of an unlighted cigar。 After to…morrow his Tuesday expeditions to town would have to be abandoned。 He could still drive up； perhaps； once a week； on the pretext of seeing his man of business。 But even that would be dependent on his health； for now they would begin to fuss about him。 The lessons！ The lessons must go on！ She must swallow down her scruples； and June must put her feelings in her pocket。 She had done so once； on the day after the news of Bosinney's death； what she had done then； she could surely do again now。 Four years since that injury was inflicted on hernot Christian to keep the memory of old sores alive。 June's will was strong； but his was stronger； for his sands were running out。 Irene was soft； surely she would do this for him； subdue her natural shrinking； sooner than give him pain！ The lessons must continue； for if they did； he was secure。 And lighting his cigar at last； he began trying to shape out how to put it to them all； and explain this strange intimacy； how to veil and wrap it away from the naked truth that he could not bear to be deprived of the sight of beauty。 Ah！ Holly！ Holly was fond of her； Holly liked her lessons。 She would save himhis little sweet！ And with that happy thought he became serene； and wondered what he had been worrying about so fearfully。 He must not worry； it left him always curiously weak； and as if but half present in his own body。
That evening after dinner he had a return of the dizziness； though he did not faint。 He would not ring the bell； because he knew it would mean a fuss； and make his going up on the morrow more conspicuous。 When one grew old； the whole world was in conspiracy to limit freedom； and for what reason？just to keep the breath in him a little longer。 He did not want it at such cost。 Only the dog Balthasar saw his lonely recovery from that weakness； anxiously watched his master go to the sideboard and drink some brandy； instead of giving him a biscuit。 When at last old Jolyon felt able to tackle the stairs he went up to bed。 And； though still shaky next morning； the thought of the evening sustained and strengthened him。 It was always such a pleasure to give her a good dinnerhe suspected her of undereating when she was alone； and； at the opera to watch her eyes glow and brighten； the unconscious smiling of her lips。 She hadn't much pleasure； and this was the last time he would be able to give her that treat。 But when he was packing his bag he caught himself wishing that he had not the fatigue of dressing for dinner before him； and the exertion； too； of telling her about June's return。
The opera that evening was 'Carmen；' and he chose the last entr'acte to break the news； instinctively putting it off till the latest moment。
She took it quietly； queerly； in fact； he did not know how she had taken it before the wayward music lifted up again and silence became necessary。 The mask was down over her face； that mask behind which so much went on that he could not see。 She wanted time to think it over； no doubt！ He would not press her； for she would be coming to give her lesson to…morrow afternoon； and he should see her then when she had got used to the idea。 In the cab he talked only of the Carmen； he had seen better in the old days； but this one was not bad at all。 When he took her hand to say good…night； she bent quickly forward and kissed his forehead。
〃Good…bye； dear Uncle Jolyon； you have been so sweet to me。〃
〃To…morrow then；〃 he said。 〃Good…night。 Sleep well。〃 She echoed softly： 〃Sleep welll〃 and from the cab window； already moving away； he saw her face screwed round towards him； and her hand put out in a gesture which seemed to linger。
He sought his room slowly。 They never gave him the same； and he could not get used to these 'spick…and…spandy' bedrooms with new furniture and grey…green carpets sprinkled all over with pink roses。 He was wakeful and that wretched Habanera kept throbbing in his head。
His French had never been equal to its words； but its sense he knew； if it had any sense； a gipsy thingwild and unaccountable。 Well； there was in life something which upset all your care and plans something which made men and women dance to its pipes。 And he lay staring from deep…sunk eyes into the darkness where the unaccountable held sway。 You thought you had hold of life； but it slipped away behind you； took you by the scruff of the neck； forced you here and forced you there； and then； likely as not； squeezed life out of you！ It took the very stars like that； he shouldn't wonder； rubbed their noses together and flung them apart； it had never done playing its pranks。 Five million people in this great blunderbuss of a town； and all of them at the mercy of that Life…Force； like a lot of little dried peas hopping about on a board when you struck your fist on it。 Ah； well！ Himself would not hop much longera good long sleep would do him good！
How hot it was up here！how noisy！ His forehead burned； she had kissed it just where he always worried； just thereas if she had known the very place and wanted to kiss it all away for him。 But； instead； her lips left a patch of grievous uneasiness。 She had never spoken in quite that voice； had never before made that lingering gesture or looked back at him as she drove away。
He got out of bed and pulled the curtains aside； his room faced down over the river。 There was little air； but the sight of that breadth of water flowing by； calm； eternal； soothed him。 'The great thing；' he thought 'is not to make myself a nuisance。 I'll think of my little sweet； and go to sleep。' But it was long before the heat and throbbing of the London night died out into the short slumber of the summer morning。 And old Jolyon had but forty winks。
When he reached home next day he went out to the flower garden； and with the help of Holly； who was very delicate with flowers； gathered a great bunch of carnations。 They were； he told her； for 'the la