There were three tables in the tent。 Two were occupied； on the third they laid Prince Andrey。 For some time he was left alone； an involuntary witness of what was being done at the other tables。 On the table nearest sat a Tatar； probably of a Cossack regiment； judging from the uniform that had been thrown down close by。 Four soldiers were holding him。 A doctor in spectacles was cutting something in his brown； muscular back。
‘Ooh！ ooh！ ooh！…” the Tatar； as it were； grunted； and all of a sudden； throwing up his broad； swarthy； sun…burned face； and showing his white teeth； he began wriggling； twitching； and shrieking a piercingly shrill； prolonged scream。 On the other table； round which a number of persons were standing； a big； stout man lay on his back； with his head flung back。 The colour and curliness of the hair and the shape seemed strangely familiar to Prince Andrey。 Several assistants were holding him； and weighing on his chest。 One white； plump leg was incessantly moving with a rapid； spasmodic twitching。 This man was sobbing and choking convulsively。 Two doctors—one was pale and trembling—were mutely engaged in doing something with the other red； gory leg。 Having finished with the Tatar； over whom a cloak was thrown； the doctor in spectacles came up to Prince Andrey； wiping his hands。
He glanced at his face； and hurriedly turned away。 “Undress him！ Why are you dawdling？” he shouted angrily to the assistant。
His earliest； remotest childhood came back to Prince Andrey； when the assistant； with tucked…up sleeves； hurriedly unbuttoned his buttons； and took off his clothes。 The doctor bent close down over the wound； felt it； and sighed deeply。 Then he made a sign to some one。 And the excruciating pain inside his stomach made Prince Andrey lose consciousness。 When he regained consciousness； the broken splinters of his thigh bone had been removed； the bits of ragged flesh had been cut off； and the wound bound up。 Water was sprinkled on his face。 As soon as Prince Andrey opened his eyes； the doctor bent over him； kissed him on the lips without speaking； and hurried away。
After the agony he had passed through； Prince Andrey felt a blissful peace； such as he had not known for very long。 All the best and happiest moments of his life； especially his earliest childhood； when he had been undressed and put to bed； when his nurse had sung lullabies over him； when； burying his head in the pillows； he had felt happy in the mere consciousness of life； rose before his imagination； not like the past even； but as though it were the actual present。
The doctors were busily engaged with the wounded man； whose head had seemed somehow familiar to Prince Andrey： they were lifting him up and trying to soothe him。
“Show it to me… ooo！ o！ ooo！” he could hear his frightened； abjectly suffering moans； broken by sobs。 Hearing his moans； Prince Andrey wanted to cry。 Either because he was dying thus without glory； or because he was sorry to part with life； or from these memories of a childhood that could never return； or because he was in pain； or because others were suffering； and that man was moaning so piteously； he longed to weep childlike； good； almost happy； tears。
They showed the wounded man the leg that had been amputated； wearing a boot； and covered with dry gore。 “O！ oooo！” he sobbed like a woman。 The doctor who had been standing near him； screening his face； moved away。
“My God！ How’s this？ Why is he here？” Prince Andrey wondered。
In the miserable； sobbing； abject creature； whose leg had just been cut off； he recognised Anatole Kuragin。 It was Anatole they were holding up in their arms and offering a glass of water； the edge of which he could not catch with his trembling； swollen lips。 Anatole drew a sobbing； convulsive breath。 “Yes； it is he； yes； that man is somehow closely and painfully bound up with me；” thought Prince Andrey； with no clear understanding yet of what was before him。 “What is the connection between that man and my childhood； my life？” he asked himself； unable to find the clue。 And all at once a new； unexpected memory from that childlike world of purity and love rose up before Prince Andrey。 He remembered Natasha； as he had seen her for the first time at the ball in 1810； with her slender neck and slender arms； and her frightened； happy face； ready for ecstatic enjoyment； and a love and tenderness awoke in his heart for her stronger and more loving than ever。 He recalled now the bond that existed between him and this man； who was looking vaguely at him through the tears that filled his swollen eyes。 Prince Andrey remembered everything； and a passionate pity and love for that suffering man filled his happy heart。
Prince Andrey could restrain himself no more and wept tears of love and tenderness over his fellow…men； over himself； and over their errors and his own。 “Sympathy； love for our brothers； for those who love us； love for those who hate us； love for our enemies； yes； the love that God preached upon earth； that Marie sought to teach me； and I did not understand； that is why I am sorry to part with life； that is what was left me if I had lived。 But now it is too late。 I know that！”
Chapter 38
THE TEARFUL SPECTACLE of the battlefield； heaped with dead and wounded； in conjunction with the heaviness of his head； the news that some twenty generals he knew well were among the killed or wounded； and the sense of the impotence of his once mighty army； made an unexpected impression on Napoleon； who was usually fond of looking over the dead and wounded； proving thereby； as he imagined； his dauntless spirit。 On that day； the awful spectacle of the battlefield overcame this dauntless spirit； which he looked upon as a merit and a proof of greatness。 He hastened away from the field of battle and returned to Shevardino。 With a yellow； puffy； heavy face； dim eyes； a red nose； and a husky voice； he sat on a camp…stool； looking down and involuntarily listening to the sounds of the firing。 With sickly uneasiness he awaited the end of this action； in which he considered himself the prime mover； though he could not have stopped it。 The personal； human sentiment for one brief moment gained the ascendant over the artificial phantasm of life； that he had served so long。 He imagined in his own case the agonies and death he had seen on the battlefield。 The heaviness of his head and chest reminded him of the possibility for him too of agony and death。 At that minute he felt no longing for Moscow； for victory or for glory。 （What need had he for more glory？） The one thing he desired now was repose； tranquillity； and freedom。 But when he was on the height above Semyonovskoye； the officer in command of the artillery proposed to him to bring several batteries up on to that height to increase the fire on the Russian troops before Knyazkovo。 Napoleon assented； and gave orders that word should be brought him of the effect produced by this battery。
An adjutant came to say that by the Emperor’s orders two hundred guns had been directed upon the Russians； but that they were still holding their ground。
“Our fire is mowing them down in whole rows； but they stand firm；” said the adjutant。
“They want more of it！” said Napoleon in his husky voice。
“Sire？” repeated the adjutant； who had not caught the words。
“They want even more！” Napoleon croaked hoarsely； frowning。 “Well； let them have it then。”
Already； without orders from him； what he did not really want was being done； and he gave the order to do it simply because he thought the order was expected of him。 And he passed back again into his old artificial world； peopled by the phantoms of some unreal greatness； and again （as a horse running in a rolling wheel may imagine it is acting on its own account） he fell back into submissively performing the cruel； gloomy； irksome； and inhuman part destined for him。
And not for that hour and day only were the mind and conscience darkened in that man； on whom the burden of all that was being done lay even more heavily than on all the others who took part in it。 Never； down to the end of his life； had he the least comprehension of good； of beauty； of truth； of the significance of his own acts； which were too far opposed to truth and goodness； too remote from everything human for him to be able to grasp their significance。 He could not disavow his own acts； that were lauded by half the world； and so he was forced to disavow truth and goodness and everything human。
Not on that day only； as he rode about the battlefield； piled with corpses and mutilated men （the work； as he supposed； of his will） he reckoned as he gazed at them how many Russians lay there for each Frenchman； and cheated himself into finding matter for rejoicing in the belief that there were five Russians for every Frenchman。 Not on that day only he wrote to Paris that “le champ de bataille a été superbe；” because there were fifty thousand corpses on it。 Even in St。 Helena； in the peaceful solitude where he said he intended to devote his leisure to an account of the great deeds he had done； he wrote：
“The Russian war ought to have been the most popular of modern times： it was the war of good sense and real interests； of the repose and security of all： it was purely pacific and conservative。
“It was for the great cause； the end of uncertainties and the beginning of security。 A new horizon； new labours were unfolding； all full of welfare and prosperity for all。 The European system was established； all that remained was to organise it。
“Satisfied on these great points and tranquil everywhere； I too should have had my congress and my holy alliance。 These are ideas stolen from me。 In this assembly of great sovereigns； we could have treated of our interests like one family and have reckoned； as clerk with master； with the peoples。
“Europe would soon in that way have made in fact but one people； and every one； travelling all over it； would always have found himself in the common fatherland。 I should have required all the rivers to be open for the navigation of all； the seas to be common to all； and the great standing armies to be reduced henceforth simply to the bodyguard of the sovereigns。
“Returning to France； to the bosom of the great； strong； magnificent； tranquil