2 new moon新月- 第71部分

They　waited　patiently　while　I　tried　to　order　my　thoughts。　

〃So；　I　have　a　problem；〃　I　began。　〃Alice　promised　the　Volturi　that　I　would　become　one　of　you。　They're　
going　to　send　someone　to　check；　and　I'm　sure　that's　a　bad　thing—something　to　avoid。　

〃And　so；　now；　this　involves　you　all。　I'm　sorry　about　that。〃　I　looked　at　each　one　of　their　beautiful　faces；　
saving　the　most　beautiful　for　last。　Edward's　mouth　was　turned　down　into　a　grimace。　〃But；　if　you　don't　
want　me；　then　I'm　not　going　to　force　myself　on　you；　whether　Alice　is　willing　or　not。〃　

Esme　opened　her　mouth　to　speak；　but　I　held　up　one　finger　to　stop　her。　

〃Please；　let　me　finish。　You　all　know　what　I　want。　And　I'm　sure　you　know　what　Edward　thinks；　too。　I　
think　the　only　fair　way　to　decide　is　for　everyone　to　have　a　vote。　If　you　decide　you　don't　want　me；　then…　
I　guess　I'll　go　back　to　Italy　alone。　I　can't　have　them　coming　here。〃　My　forehead　creased　as　I　considered　
that。　

There　was　the　faint　rumble　of　a　growl　in　Edward's　chest。　I　ignored　him。　

〃Taking　into　account；　then；　that　I　won't　put　any　of　you　in　danger　either　way；　I　want　you　to　vote　yes　or　no　
on　the　issue　of　me　becoming　a　vampire。〃　

I　half…smiled　on　the　last　word；　and　gestured　toward　Carlisle　to　begin。　

〃Just　a　minute；〃　Edward　interrupted。　

I　glared　at　him　through　narrowed　eyes。　He　raised　his　eyebrows　at　me；　squeezing　my　hand。　

〃I　have　something　to　add　before　we　vote。〃　

I　sighed。　

〃About　the　danger　Bella's　referring　to；〃　he　continued。　〃I　don't　think　we　need　to　be　overly　anxious。〃　

His　expression　became　more　animated。　He　put　his　free　hand　on　the　shining　table　and　leaned　forward。　

〃You　see；〃　he　explained；　looking　around　the　table　while　he　spoke；　〃there　was　more　than　one　reason　why　
I　didn't　want　to　shake　Aro's　hand　there　at　the　end。　There's　something　they　didn't　think　of；　and　I　didn't　
want　to　cine　them　in。〃　He　grinned。　

〃Which　was？〃　Alice　prodded。　I　was　sure　my　expression　was　just　as　skeptical　as　hers。　

〃The　Volturi　are　overconfident；　and　with　good　reason。　When　they　decide　to　find　someone；　it's　not　really　a　
problem。　Do　you　remember　Demetri？〃　He　glanced　down　at　me。　

I　shuddered。　He　took　that　as　a　yes。　

〃He　finds　people—that's　his　talent；　why　they　keep　him。　

〃Now；　the　whole　time　we　were　with　any　of　them；　I　was　picking　their　brains　for　anything　that　might　save　
us；　getting　as　much　information　as　possible。　So　I　saw　how　Demetri's　talent　works。　He's　a　tracker—a　
tracker　a　thousand　times　more　gifted　than　Jarres　was。　His　ability　is　loosely　related　to　what　I　do；　or　what　
Aro　does。　He　catches　the…　flavor？　I　don't　know　how　to　describe　it…　the　tenor…　of　someone's　mind；　
and　then　he　follows　that。　It　works　over　immense　distances。　

〃But　after　Aro's　little　experiments；　well…〃　Edward　shrugged。　

〃You　think　he　won't　be　able　to　find　me；〃　I　said　flatly。　

He　was　smug。　〃I'm　sure　of　it。　He　relies　totally　on　that　other　sense。　When　it　doesn't　work　with　you；　they'll　
all　be　blind。〃　

〃And　how　does　that　solve　anything？〃　

〃Quite　obviously；　Alice　will　be　able　to　tell　when　they're　planning　a　visit；　and　I'll　hide　you。　They'll　be　
helpless；〃　he　said　with　fierce　enjoyment。　〃It　will　be　like　looking　for　a　piece　of　straw　in　a　haystack！〃　

He　and　Emmett　exchanged　a　glance　and　a　smirk。　

This　made　no　sense。　〃But　they　can　find　you；〃　I　reminded　him。　

〃And　I　can　take　care　of　myself。〃　

Emmett　laughed；　and　reached　across　the　table　toward　his　brother；　extending　a　fist。　

〃Excellent　plan；　my　brother；〃　he　said　with　enthusiasm。　

Edward　stretched　out　his　arm　to　smack　Emmett's　fist　with　his　own。　

〃No；〃　Rosalie　hissed。　

〃Absolutely　not；〃　I　agreed。　

〃Nice。〃　Jasper's　voice　was　appreciative。　

〃Idiots；〃　Alice　muttered。　

Esme　just　glared　at　Edward。　

I　straightened　up　in　my　chair；　focusing。　This　was　my　meeting。　

〃All　right；　then。　Edward　has　offered　an　alternative　for　you　to　consider；〃　I　said　coolly。　〃Let's　vote。〃　

I　looked　toward　Edward　this　time；　it　would　be　better　to　get　his　opinion　out　of　the　way。　〃Do　you　want　me　
to　join　your　family？〃　

His　eyes　were　hard　and　black　as　flint。　〃Not　that　way。　You're　staying　human。〃　

I　nodded　once；　keeping　my　face　businesslike；　and　then　moved　on。　

〃Alice？〃　

〃Yes。〃　

〃Jasper？〃　

〃Yes；〃　he　said；　voice　grave。　I　was　a　little　surprised—I　hadn't　been　at　all　sure　of　his　vote—but　I　
suppressed　my　reaction　and　moved　on。　

〃Rosalie？〃　

She　hesitated；　biting　down　on　her　full；　perfect　bottom　lip。　〃No。〃　

I　kept　my　face　blank　and　turned　my　head　slightly　to　move　on；　but　she　held　up　both　her　hands；　palms　
forward。　

〃Let　me　explain；〃　she　pleaded。　〃I　don't　mean　that　I　have　any　aversion　to　you　as　a　sister。　It's　just　that…　
this　is　not　the　life　I　would　have　chosen　for　myself。　I　wish　there　had　been　someone　there　to　vote　no　for　
me。〃　

I　nodded　slowly；　and　then　turned　to　Emmett。　

〃Hell；　yes！〃　He　grinned。　〃We　can　find　some　other　way　to　pick　a　fight　with　this　Demetri。〃　

I　was　still　grimacing　at　that　when　I　looked　at　Esme。　

〃Yes；　of　course；　Bella。　I　already　think　of　you　as　part　of　my　family。〃　

〃Thank　you；　Esme；〃　I　murmured　as　I　turned　toward　Carlisle。　

I　was　suddenly　nervous；　wishing　I　had　asked　for　his　vote　first。　I　was　sure　that　this　was　the　vote　that　
mattered　most；　the　vote　that　counted　more　than　any　majority。　

Carlisle　wasn't　looking　at　me。　

〃Edward；〃　he　said。　

〃No；〃　Edward　growled。　His　jaw　was　strained　tight；　his　lips　curled　back　from　his　teeth。　

〃It's　the　only　way　that　makes　sense；〃　Carlisle　insisted。　〃You've　chosen　not　to　live　without　her；　and　that　
doesn't　leave　me　a　choice。〃　

Edward　dropped　my　hand；　shoving　away　from　the　table。　He　stalked　out　of　the　room；　snarling　under　his　
breath。　

〃I　guess　you　know　my　vote。〃　Carlisle　sighed。　

I　was　still　staring　after　Edward。　〃Thanks；〃　I　mumbled。　

An　earsplitting　crash　echoed　from　the　other　room。　

I　flinched；　and　spoke　quickly。　〃That's　all　I　needed。　Thank　you。　For　wanting　to　keep　me。　I　feel　exactly　the　
same　way　about　all　of　you；　too。〃　My　voice　was　jagged　with　emotion　by　the　end。　

Esme　was　at　my　side　in　a　flash；　her　cold　arms　around　me。　

〃Dearest　Bella；〃　she　breathed。　

I　hugged　her　back。　Out　of　the　corner　of　my　eye；　I　noticed　Rosalie　looking　down　at　the　table；　and　I　
realized　that　my　words　could　be　construed　in　two　ways。　

〃Well；　Alice；〃　I　said　when　Esme　released　me。　〃Where　do　you　want　to　do　this？〃　

Alice　stared　at　me；　her　eyes　widening　with　terror。　

〃No！　No！　NO！〃　Edward　roared；　charging　back　into　the　room。　He　was　in　my　face　before　I　had　time　to　
blink；　bending　over　me；　his　expression　twisted　in　rage。　〃Are　you　insane？〃　he　shouted。　〃Have　you　utterly　
lost　your　mind？〃　

I　cringed　away；　my　hands　over　my　ears。　

〃Um；　Bella；〃　Alice　interjected　in　an　anxious　voice。　〃I　don't　think　I'm　ready　for　that。　I'll　need　to　prepare…〃　

〃You　promised；〃　I　reminded　her；　glaring　under　Edward's　arm。　

〃I　know；　but…　Seriously；　Bella！　I　don't　have　any　idea　how　to　not　killyou。〃　

〃You　can　do　it；〃　I　encouraged。　〃I　trust　you。〃　

Edward　snarled　in　fury。　

Alice　shook　her　head　quickly；　looking　panicked。　

〃Carlisle？〃　I　turned　to　look　at　him。　

Edward　grabbed　my　face　in　his　hand；　forcing　me　to　look　at　him。　His　other　hand　was　out；　palm　toward　
Carlisle。　

Carlisle　ignored　that。　〃I'm　able　to　do　it；〃　he　answered　my　question。　I　wished　I　could　see　his　expression。　
〃You　would　be　in　no　danger　of　me　losing　control。〃　

〃Sounds　good。〃　I　hoped　he　could　understand；　it　was　hard　to　talk　clearly　the　way　Edward　held　my　jaw。　

〃Hold　on；〃　Edward　said　between　his　teeth。　〃It　doesn't　have　to　be　now。〃　

〃There's　no　reason　for　it　not　to　be　now；〃　I　said；　the　words　coming　out　distorted。　

〃I　can　think　of　a　few。〃　

〃Of　course　you　can；〃　I　said　sourly。　〃Now　let　go　of　me。〃　

He　freed　my　face；　and　folded　his　arms　across　his　chest。　〃In　about　two　hours；　Charlie　will　be　here　looking　
for　you。　I　wouldn't　put　it　past　him　to　involve　the　police。〃　

〃All　three　of　them。〃　But　I　frowned。　

This　was　always　the　hardest　part。　Charlie；　Renee。　Now　Jacob；　too。　The　people　I　would　lose；　the　people　
I　would　hurt。　I　wished　there　was　some　way　that　I　could　be　the　only　one　to　suffer；　but　I　knew　that　was　
impossible。　

At　the　same　time；　I　was　hurting　them　more　by　staying　human。　Putting　Charlie　in　constant　danger　through　
my　proximity。　Putting　Jake　in　worse　danger　still　by　drawing　his　enemies　across　the　land　he　felt　bound　to　
protect。　And　Renee—I　couldn't　even　risk　a　visit　to　see　my　own　mother　for　fear　of　bringing　my　deadly　
problems　along　with　me！　

I　was　a　danger　magnet；　I'd　accepted　that　about　myself。　

Accepting　this；　I　knew　I　needed　to　be　able　to　take　care　of　myself　and　protect　the　ones　I　loved；　even　if　
that　meant　that　I　couldn't　be　with　them。　I　needed　to　be　strong。　

〃In　the　interest　of　remaining　inconspicuous；〃　Edward　said；　still　talking　through　his　gritted　teeth；　but　
looking　at　Carlisle　now；　〃I　suggest　that　we　put　this　conversation　off；　at　the　very　least　until　Bella　finishes　
high　school；　and　moves　out　of　Charlie's　house。〃　

〃That's　a　reasonable　request；　Bella；〃　Carlisle　pointed　out。　

I　thought　about　Charlie's　reaction　when　he　woke　up　this　morning；　if—after　all　that　life　had　put　him　through　
in　the　last　week　with　Harry's　loss；　and　then　I　had　put　him　through　with　my　unexplained　
disappearance—he　were　to　find　my　bed　empty。　Charlie　deserved　better　than　that。　It　was　just　a　little　more　
time；　graduation　wasn't　so　far　away…　

I　pursed　my　lips。　〃I'll　consider　it。〃　

Edward　relaxed。　His　jaw　unclenched。　

〃I　should　probably　take　you　home；〃　he　said；　more　calm　now；　but　clearly　in　a　hurry　to　get　me　out　of　here。　
〃Just　in　case　Charlie　wakes　up　early。〃　

I　looked　at　Carlisle。　〃After　graduation？〃　

〃You　have　my　word。〃　

I　took　a　deep　breath；　smiled；　and　turned　back　to　Edward。　〃Okay。　You　can　take　me　home。〃　

Edward　rushed　me　out　of　the　house　before　Carlisle　could　promise　me　anything　else。　He　took　me　out　the　
back；　so　I　didn't　get　to　see　what　was　broken　in　the　living　room。　

It　was　a　quiet　trip　home。　I　was　feeling　triumphant；　and　a　little　smug。　Scared　stiff；　too；　of　course；　but　I　tried　
not　to　think　about　that　part。　It　did　me　no　good　to　worry　about　the　pain—the　physical　or　the　
emotional—so　I　wouldn't。　No