Under the words； Emmie broke her husband’s hold and fled for the carriage； scrambling in with a flash of patent…leather boots with bright…red tops and red tassels。
Now Jonas shook with a fury equal to Scarlett’s and his sallow face was as red as an angry turkey gobbler’s。
“Still high and mighty； aren’t you？ Well； I know all about you。 I know you haven’t got shoes for your feet。 I know your father’s turned idiot—”
“Get off this place！”
“Oh； you won’t sing that way very long。 I know you’re broke。 I know you can’t even pay your taxes。 I came out here to offer to buy this place from you—to make you a right good offer。 Emmie had a hankering to live here。 But； by God； I won’t give you a cent now！ You highflying； bog…trotting Irish will find out who’s running things around here when you get sold out for taxes。 And I’ll buy this place； lock； stock and barrel—furniture and all—and I’ll live in it。”
So it was Jonas Wilkerson who wanted Tara—Jonas and Emmie； who in some twisted way thought to even past slights by living in the home where they had been slighted。 All her nerves hummed with hate； as they had hummed that day when she shoved the pistol barrel into the Yankee’s bearded face and fired。 She wished she had that pistol now。
“I’ll tear this house down； stone by stone； and burn it and sow every acre with salt before I see either of you put foot over this threshold；” she shouted。 “Get out； I tell you！ Get out！”
Jonas glared at her； started to say more and then walked toward the carriage。 He climbed in beside his whimpering wife and turned the horse。 As they drove off； Scarlett had the impulse to spit at them。 She did spit。 She knew it was a common； childish gesture but it made her feel better。 She wished she had done it while they could see her。
Those damned nigger lovers daring to come here and taunt her about her poverty！ That hound never intended offering her a price for Tara。 He just used that as an excuse to come and flaunt himself and Emmie in her face。 The dirty Scalawags； the lousy trashy poor whites； boasting they would live at Tara！
Then； sudden terror struck her and her rage melted。 God’s nightgown！ They will come and live here！ There was nothing she could do to keep them from buying Tara； nothing to keep them from levying on every mirror and table and bed； on Ellen’s shining mahogany and rosewood； and every bit of it precious to her； scarred though it was by the Yankee raiders。 And the Robillard silver too。 I won’t let them do it； thought Scarlett vehemently。 No； not if I’ve got to burn the place down！ Emmie Slattery will never set her foot on a single bit of flooring Mother ever walked on！
She closed the door and leaned against it and she was very frightened。 More frightened even than she had been that day when Sherman’s army was in the house。 That day the worst she could fear was that Tara would be burned over her head。 But this was worse—these low common creatures living in this house； bragging to their low common friends how they had turned the proud O’Haras out。 Perhaps they’d even bring negroes here to dine and sleep。 Will had told her Jonas made a great to…do about being equal with the negroes； ate with them； visited in their houses； rode them around with him in his carriage； put his arms around their shoulders。
When she thought of the possibility of this final insult to Tara； her heart pounded so hard she could scarcely breathe。 She was trying to get her mind on her problem； trying to figure some way out； but each time she collected her thoughts； fresh gusts of rage and fear shook her。 There must be some way out； there must be someone somewhere who had money she could borrow。 Money couldn’t just dry up and blow away。 Somebody had to have money。 Then the laughing words of Ashley came back to her：
“Only one person； Rhett Butler … who has money。”
Rhett Butler。 She walked quickly into the parlor and shut the door behind her。 The dim gloom of drawn blinds and winter twilight closed about her。 No one would think of hunting for her here and she wanted time to think； undisturbed。 The idea which had just occurred to her was so simple she wondered why she had not thought of it before。
“I’ll get the money from Rhett。 I’ll sell him the diamond earbobs。 Or I’ll borrow the money from him and let him keep the earbobs till I can pay him back。”
For a moment； relief was so great she felt weak。 She would pay the taxes and laugh in Jonas Wilkerson’s face。 But close on this happy thought came relentless knowledge。
“It’s not only for this year that I’ll need tax money。 There’s next year and all the years of my life。 If I pay up this time； they’ll raise the taxes higher next time till they drive me out。 If I make a good cotton crop； they’ll tax it till I’ll get nothing for it or maybe confiscate it outright and say it’s Confederate cotton。 The Yankees and the scoundrels teamed up with them have got me where they want me。 All my life； as long as I live； I’ll be afraid they’ll get me somehow。 All my life I’ll be scared and scrambling for money and working myself to death； only to see my work go for nothing and my cotton stolen。 。。。 Just borrowing three hundred dollars for the taxes will be only a stopgap。 What I want is to get out of this fix； for good—so I can go to sleep at night without worrying over what’s going to happen to me tomorrow； and next month； and next year。”
Her mind ticked on steadily。 Coldly and logically an idea grew in her brain。 She thought of Rhett； a flash of white teeth against swarthy skin； sardonic black eyes caressing her。 She recalled the hot night in Atlanta； close to the end of the siege； when he sat on Aunt Pitty’s porch half hidden in the summer darkness； and she felt again the heat of his hand upon her arm as he said： “I want you more than I have ever wanted any woman—and I’ve waited longer for you than I’ve ever waited for any woman。”
“I’ll marry him；” she thought coolly。 “And then I’ll never have to bother about money again。”
Oh； blessed thought； sweeter than hope of Heaven； never to worry about money again； to know that Tara was safe； that the family was fed and clothed； that she would never again have to bruise herself against stone walls！
She felt very old。 The afternoon’s events had drained her of all feeling； first the startling news about the taxes； then Ashley and； last； her murderous rage at Jonas Wilkerson。 Now there was no emotion left in her。 If all her capacity to feel had not been utterly exhausted； something in her would have protested against the plan taking form in her mind； for she hated Rhett as she hated no other person in all the world。 But she could not feel。 She could only think and her thoughts were very practical。
“I said some terrible things to him that night when he deserted us on the road； but I can make him forget them；” she thought contemptuously； still sure of her power to charm。 “Butter won’t melt in my mouth when I’m around him。 I’ll make him think I always loved him and was just upset and frightened that night。 Oh； men are so conceited they’ll believe anything that flatters them。 。。。 I must never let him dream what straits we’re in； not till I’ve got him。 Oh； he mustn’t know！ If he even suspected how poor we are； he’d know it was his money I wanted and not himself。 After all； there’s no way he could know； for even Aunt Pitty doesn’t know the worst。 And after I’ve married him； he’ll have to help us。 He can’t let his wife’s people starve。” His wife。 Mrs。 Rhett Butler。 Something of repulsion； buried deep beneath her cold thinking； stirred faintly and then was stilled。 She remembered the embarrassing and disgusting events of her brief honeymoon with Charles； his fumbling hands； his awkwardness； his incomprehensible emotions—and Wade Hampton。
“I won’t think about it now。 I’ll bother about it after I’ve married him。 。。。”
After she had married him。 Memory rang a bell。 A chill went down her spine。 She remembered again that night on Aunt Pitty’s porch； remembered how she asked him if he was proposing to her； remembered how hatefully he had laughed and said： “My dear； I’m not a marrying man。”
Suppose he was still not a marrying man。 Suppose despite all her charms and wiles； he refused to marry her。 Suppose—oh； terrible thought！—suppose he had completely forgotten about her and was chasing after some other woman。
“I want you more than I have ever wanted any woman。 。。。”
Scarlett’s nails dug into her palms as she clenched her fists。 “If he’s forgotten me； I’ll make him remember me。 I’ll make him want me again。”
And； if he would not marry her but still wanted her； there was a way to get the money。 After all； he had once asked her to be his mistress。
In the dim grayness of the parlor she fought a quick decisive battle with the three most binding ties of her soul—the memory of Ellen； the teachings of her religion and her love for Ashley。 She knew that what she had in her mind must be hideous to her mother even in that warm far…off Heaven where she surely was。 She knew that fornication was a mortal sin。 And she knew that； loving Ashley as she did； her plan was doubly prostitution。
But all these things went down before the merciless coldness of her mind and the goad of desperation。 Ellen was dead and perhaps death gave an understanding of all things。 Religion forbade fornication on pain of hell fire but if the Church thought she was going to leave one stone unturned in saving Tara and saving the family from starving—well； let the Church bother about that。 She wouldn’t。 At least； not now。 And Ashley—Ashley didn’t want her。 Yes； he did want her。 The memory of his warm mouth on hers told her that。 But he would never take her away with him。 Strange that going away with Ashley did not seem like a sin； but with Rhett—
In the dull twilight of the winter afternoon she came to the end of the long road which had begun the night Atlanta fell。 She had set her feet upon that road a spoiled； selfish and untried girl； full of youth； warm of emotion； easily bewildered by life。 Now； at the end of the road； there was nothing left of that girl。 Hunger and hard labor； fear and constant strain； the terrors of war and th