albert savarus- 第15部分

　　〃But　there　surely　is　a　moment　when　Tantalus　rebels；　crosses　his
　　arms；　and　defies　hell；　throwing　up　his　part　of　the　eternal　dupe。
　　That　is　what　I　shall　come　to　if　anything　should　thwart　my　plan；
　　if；　after　stooping　to　the　dust　of　provincial　life；　prowling　like　a
　　starving　tiger　round　these　tradesmen；　these　electors；　to　secure
　　their　votes；　if；　after　wrangling　in　these　squalid　cases；　and
　　giving　them　my　timethe　time　I　might　have　spent　on　Lago　Maggiore；
　　seeing　the　waters　she　sees；　basking　in　her　gaze；　hearing　her　voice
　　if；　after　all；　I　failed　to　scale　the　tribune　and　conquer　the
　　glory　that　should　surround　the　name　that　is　to　succeed　to　that　of
　　Argaiolo！　Nay；　more　than　this；　Leopold；　there　are　days　when　I　feel
　　a　heady　languor；　deep　disgust　surges　up　from　the　depths　of　my
　　soul；　especially　when；　abandoned　to　long　day…dreams；　I　have　lost
　　myself　in　anticipation　of　the　joys　of　blissful　love！　May　it　not　be
　　that　our　desire　has　only　a　certain　modicum　of　power；　and　that　it
　　perishes；　perhaps；　of　a　too　lavish　effusion　of　its　essence？　For；
　　after　all；　at　this　present；　my　life　is　fair；　illuminated　by　faith；
　　work；　and　love。

　　〃Farewell；　my　friend；　I　send　love　to　your　children；　and　beg　you　to
　　remember　me　to　your　excellent　wife。Yours；
〃ALBERT。〃


Rosalie　read　this　letter　twice　through；　and　its　general　purport　was
stamped　on　her　heart。　She　suddenly　saw　the　whole　of　Albert's　previous
existence；　for　her　quick　intelligence　threw　light　on　all　the　details；
and　enabled　her　to　take　it　all　in。　By　adding　this　information　to　the
little　novel　published　in　the　/Review/；　she　now　fully　understood
Albert。　Of　course；　she　exaggerated　the　greatness；　remarkable　as　it
was；　of　this　lofty　soul　and　potent　will；　and　her　love　for　Albert
thenceforth　became　a　passion；　its　violence　enhanced　by　all　the
strength　of　her　youth；　the　weariness　of　her　solitude；　and　the　unspent
energy　of　her　character。　Love　is　in　a　young　girl　the　effect　of　a
natural　law；　but　when　her　craving　for　affection　is　centered　in　an
exceptional　man；　it　is　mingled　with　the　enthusiasm　which　overflows　in
a　youthful　heart。　Thus　Mademoiselle　de　Watteville　had　in　a　few　days
reached　a　morbid　and　very　dangerous　stage　of　enamored　infatuation。　The
Baroness　was　much　pleased　with　her　daughter；　who；　being　under　the
spell　of　her　absorbing　thoughts；　never　resisted　her　will；　seemed　to　be
devoted　to　feminine　occupations；　and　realized　her　mother's　ideal　of　a
docile　daughter。

The　lawyer　was　now　engaged　in　Court　two　or　three　times　a　week。　Though
he　was　overwhelmed　with　business；　he　found　time　to　attend　the　trials；
call　on　the　litigious　merchants；　and　conduct　the　/Review/；　keeping　up
his　personal　mystery；　from　the　conviction　that　the　more　covert　and
hidden　was　his　influence；　the　more　real　it　would　be。　But　he　neglected
no　means　of　success；　reading　up　the　list　of　electors　of　Besancon；　and
finding　out　their　interests；　their　characters；　their　various
friendships　and　antipathies。　Did　ever　a　Cardinal　hoping　to　be　made
Pope　give　himself　more　trouble？

One　evening　Mariette；　on　coming　to　dress　Rosalie　for　an　evening　party；
handed　to　her；　not　without　many　groans　over　this　treachery；　a　letter
of　which　the　address　made　Mademoiselle　de　Watteville　shiver　and　redden
and　turn　pale　again　as　she　read　the　address：

　　To　Madame　la　Duchesse　d'Argaiolo
　　（nee　Princesse　Soderini）
　　　　At　Belgirate；
　　　　　　Lago　Maggiore；　Italy。

In　her　eyes　this　direction　blazed　as　the　words　/Mene/；　/Tekel/；
/Upharsin/；　did　in　the　eyes　of　Belshazzar。　After　concealing　the
letter；　Rosalie　went　downstairs　to　accompany　her　mother　to　Madame　de
Chavoncourt's；　and　as　long　as　the　endless　evening　lasted；　she　was
tormented　by　remorse　and　scruples。　She　had　already　felt　shame　at
having　violated　the　secrecy　of　Albert's　letter　to　Leopold；　she　had
several　times　asked　herself　whether；　if　he　knew　of　her　crime；　infamous
inasmuch　as　it　necessarily　goes　unpunished；　the　high…minded　Albert
could　esteem　her。　Her　conscience　answered　an　uncompromising　〃No。〃

She　had　expiated　her　sin　by　self…imposed　penances；　she　fasted；　she
mortified　herself　by　remaining　on　her　knees；　her　arms　outstretched　for
hours；　and　repeating　prayers　all　the　time。　She　had　compelled　Mariette
to　similar　sets　of　repentance；　her　passion　was　mingled　with　genuine
asceticism；　and　was　all　the　more　dangerous。

〃Shall　I　read　that　letter；　shall　I　not？〃　she　asked　herself；　while
listening　to　the　Chavoncourt　girls。　One　was　sixteen；　the　other
seventeen　and　a　half。　Rosalie　looked　upon　her　two　friends　as　mere
children　because　they　were　not　secretly　in　love。〃If　I　read　it；〃　she
finally　decided；　after　hesitating　for　an　hour　between　Yes　and　No；　〃it
shall；　at　any　rate；　be　the　last。　Since　I　have　gone　so　far　as　to　see
what　he　wrote　to　his　friend；　why　should　I　not　know　what　he　says　to
/her/？　If　it　is　a　horrible　crime；　is　it　not　a　proof　of　love？　Oh；
Albert！　am　I　not　your　wife？〃

When　Rosalie　was　in　bed　she　opened　the　letter；　dated　from　day　to　day；
so　as　to　give　the　Duchess　a　faithful　picture　of　Albert's　life　and
feelings。

〃25th。

　　〃My　dear　Soul；　all　is　well。　To　my　other　conquests　I　have　just
　　added　an　invaluable　one：　I　have　done　a　service　to　one　of　the　most
　　influential　men　who　work　the　elections。　Like　the　critics；　who　make
　　other　men's　reputations　but　can　never　make　their　own；　he　makes
　　deputies　though　he　never　can　become　one。　The　worthy　man　wanted　to
　　show　his　gratitude　without　loosening　his　purse…strings　by　saying
　　to　me；　'Would　you　care　to　sit　in　the　Chamber？　I　can　get　you
　　returned　as　deputy。'

　　〃　'If　I　ever　make　up　my　mind　to　enter　on　a　political　career；'
　　replied　I　hypocritically；　'it　would　be　to　devote　myself　to　the
　　Comte；　which　I　love；　and　where　I　am　appreciated。'

　　〃　'Well；'　he　said；　'we　will　persuade　you；　and　through　you　we　shall
　　have　weight　in　the　Chamber；　for　you　will　distinguish　yourself
　　there。'

　　〃And　so；　my　beloved　angel；　say　what　you　will；　my　perseverance　will
　　be　rewarded。　Ere　long　I　shall；　from　the　high　place　of　the　French
　　Tribune；　come　before　my　country；　before　Europe。　My　name　will　be
　　flung　to　you　by　the　hundred　voices　of　the　French　press。

　　〃Yes；　as　you　tell　me；　I　was　old　when　I　came　to　Besancon；　and
　　Besancon　has　aged　me　more；　but；　like　Sixtus　V。；　I　shall　be　young
　　again　the　day　after　my　election。　I　shall　enter　on　my　true　life；　my
　　own　sphere。　Shall　we　not　then　stand　in　the　same　line？　Count
　　Savaron　de　Savarus；　Ambassador　I　know　not　where；　may　surely　marry
　　a　Princess　Soderini；　the　widow　of　the　Duc　d'Argaiolo！　Triumph
　　restores　the　youth　of　men　who　have　been　preserved　by　incessant
　　struggles。　Oh；　my　Life！　with　what　gladness　did　I　fly　from　my
　　library　to　my　private　room；　to　tell　your　portrait　of　this　progress
　　before　writing　to　you！　Yes；　the　votes　I　can　command；　those　of　the
　　Vicar…General；　of　the　persons　I　can　oblige；　and　of　this　client；
　　make　my　election　already　sure。


〃26th。

　　〃We　have　entered　on　the　twelfth　year　since　that　blest　evening
　　when；　by　a　look；　the　beautiful　Duchess　sealed　the　promises　made　by
　　the　exile　Francesca。　You；　dear；　are　thirty…two；　I　am　thirty…five；
　　the　dear　Duke　is　seventy…seventhat　is　to　say；　ten　years　more
　　than　yours　and　mine　put　together；　and　he　still　keeps　well！　My
　　patience　is　almost　as　great　as　my　love；　and　indeed　I　need　a　few
　　years　yet　to　rise　to　the　level　of　your　name。　As　you　see；　I　am　in
　　good　spirits　to…day；　I　can　laugh；　that　is　the　effect　of　hope。
　　Sadness　or　gladness；　it　all　comes　to　me　through　you。　The　hope　of
　　success　always　carries　me　back　to　the　day　following　that　one　on
　　which　I　saw　you　for　the　first　time；　when　my　life　became　one　with
　　yours　as　the　earth　turns　to　the　light。　/Qual　pianto/　are　these
　　eleven　years；　for　this　is　the　26th　of　December；　the　anniversary　of
　　my　arrival　at　your　villa　on　the　Lake　of　Geneva。　For　eleven　years
　　have　I　been　crying　to　you；　while　you　shine　like　a　star　set　too
　　high　for　man　to　reach　it。


〃27th。

　　〃No；　dearest；　do　not　go　to　Milan；　stay　at　Belgirate。　Milan
　　terrifies　me。　I　do　not　like　that　odious　Milanese　fashion　of
　　chatting　at　the　Scala　every　evening　with　a　dozen　persons；　among
　　whom　it　is　hard　if　no　one　says　something　sweet。　To　me　solitude　is
　　like　the　lump　of　amber　in　whose　heart　an　insect　lives　for　ever　in
　　unchanging　beauty。　Thus　the　heart　and　soul　of　a　woman　remains　pure
　　and　unaltered　in　the　form　of　their　first　youth。　Is　it　the
　　/Tedeschi/　that　you　regret？


〃28th。

　　〃Is　your　statue　never　to　be　finished？　I　should　wish　to　have　you　in
　　marble；　in　painting；　in　miniature；　in　every　possible　form；　to
　　beguile　my　impatience。　I　still　am　waiting　for　the　view　of
　　Belgirate　from　the　south；　and　that　of　the　balcony；　these　are　all
　　that　I　now　lack。　I　am　so　extremely　busy　that　to…day　I　can　only
　　write　you　nothingbut　that　nothing　is　everything。　Was　it　not　of
　　nothing　that　God　made　the　world？　That　nothing　is　a　word；　God's
　　word：　I　love　you！


〃30th。

　　〃Ah！　I　have　received　your　journal。　Thanks　for　your　punctuality。
　　So　you　found　great　pleasure　in　seeing　all　the　details　of　our　first
　　acquaintance　thus　set　down？　Alas！　even　while　disguising　them　I　was
　　sorely　afraid　of　offending　you。　We　had　no　stories；　and　a　/Review/
　　without　stories　is　a　beauty　without　hair。　Not　being　inventive　by
　　nature；　and　in　sheer　despair；　I　took　the　only　poetry　in　my　soul；
　　the　only　adventure　in　my　memory；　and　pitched　it　in　the　key　in
　　which　it　would　bear　telling；　nor　did　I　ever　cease　to　think　of　you
　　while　writing　the　only　literary　production　that　will　ever　come
　　from　my　heart；　I　cannot　say　from　my　pen。　Did　not　the
　　transformation　of　your　fierce　Sormano　into　Gina　make　you　laugh？

　　〃You　ask　after　my　health。　Well；　it　is　better　than　in　Paris。　Though
　　I　work　enormously；　the　peacefulness　of　the　surroundings　has　its
　　effect　on　the　mind。　What　really　tries　and　ages　me；　dear　angel；　is
　　the　anguish　of　mortified　vanity；　the　perpetual　friction　of　Paris
　　life；　the　struggle　of　rival　ambitions。　This　peace　is　a　balm。

　　〃If　you　could　imagine　the　pleasure　your　letter　gives　me！the
　　long；　kind　letter　in　which　you　tell　me　the　most　trivial　incidents
　　of　your　life。　No！　you　women　can　never　know　to　what　a　degree　a　true