into the sea。 The finders carefully placed these various fragments in
their pocketbooks。 But not one of them possesses a true particle of the
Indian prince。
That very night a deputy sent by the government came to hold an inquest。
He； however； formed an estimate of this singular case like a man of
intelligence and good sense。 But what should he say in his report？
The East Indians declared that if they had been prevented in France from
cremating their dead they would have taken him to a freer country where
they could have carried out their customs。
Thus； I have seen a man cremated on a funeral pile； and it has given me a
wish to disappear in the same manner。
In this way everything ends at once。 Man expedites the slow work of
nature； instead of delaying it by the hideous coffin in which one
decomposes for months。 The flesh is dead； the spirit has fled。 Fire
which purifies disperses in a few hours all that was a human being； it
casts it to the winds； converting it into air and ashes； and not into
ignominious corruption。
This is clean and hygienic。 Putrefaction beneath the ground in a closed
box where the body becomes like pap； a blackened； stinking pap； has about
it something repugnant and disgusting。 The sight of the coffin as it
descends into this muddy hole wrings one's heart with anguish。 But the
funeral pyre which flames up beneath the sky has about it something
grand； beautiful and solemn。
MISTI
I was very much interested at that time in a droll little woman。 She was
married； of course； as I have a horror of unmarried flirts。 What
enjoyment is there in making love to a woman who belongs to nobody and
yet belongs to any one？ And； besides； morality aside； I do not
understand love as a trade。 That disgusts me somewhat。
The especial attraction in a married woman to a bachelor is that she
gives him a home； a sweet； pleasant home where every one takes care of
you and spoils you； from the husband to the servants。 One finds
everything combined there； love； friendship； even fatherly interest； bed
and board； all； in fact； that constitutes the happiness of life； with
this incalculable advantage； that one can change one's family from time
to time； take up one's abode in all kinds of society in turn： in summer；
in the country with the workman who rents you a room in his house； in
winter with the townsfolk； or even with the nobility； if one is
ambitious。
I have another weakness； it is that I become attached to the husband as
well as the wife。 I acknowledge even that some husbands； ordinary or
coarse as they may be； give me a feeling of disgust for their wives；
however charming they may be。 But when the husband is intellectual or
charming I invariably become very much attached to him。 I am careful if
I quarrel with the wife not to quarrel with the husband。 In this way I
have made some of my best friends； and have also proved in many cases the
incontestable superiority of the male over the female in the human
species。 The latter makes all sorts of trouble…scenes； reproaches； etc。；
while the former； who has just as good a right to complain； treats you；
on the contrary； as though you were the special Providence of his hearth。
Well； my friend was a quaint little woman； a brunette； fanciful；
capricious； pious； superstitious； credulous as a monk； but charming。
She had a way of kissing one that I never saw in any one elsebut that
was not the attractionand such a soft skin！ It gave me intense delight
merely to hold her hands。 And an eyeher glance was like a slow caress；
delicious and unending。 Sometimes I would lean my head on her knee and
we would remain motionless； she leaning over me with that subtle；
enigmatic； disturbing smile that women have； while my eyes would be
raised to hers； drinking sweetly and deliciously into my heart； like a
form of intoxication； the glance of her limpid blue eyes； limpid as
though they were full of thoughts of love； and blue as though they were a
heaven of delights。
Her husband； inspector of some large public works； was frequently away
from home and left us our evenings free。 Sometimes I spent them with her
lounging on the divan with my forehead on one of her knees； while on the
other lay an enormous black cat called 〃Misti；〃 whom she adored。 Our
fingers would meet on the cat's back and would intertwine in her soft
silky fur。 I felt its warm body against my cheek； trembling with its
eternal purring； and occasionally a paw would reach out and place on my
mouth； or my eyelid； five unsheathed claws which would prick my eyelids；
and then be immediately withdrawn。
Sometimes we would go out on what we called our escapades。 They were
very innocent； however。 They consisted in taking supper at some inn in
the suburbs； or else； after dining at her house or at mine； in making the
round of the cheap cafes； like students out for a lark。
We would go into the common drinking places and take our seats at the end
of the smoky den on two rickety chairs； at an old wooden table。 A cloud
of pungent smoke； with which blended an odor of fried fish from dinner；
filled the room。 Men in smocks were talking in loud tones as they drank
their petits verres； and the astonished waiter placed before us two
cherry brandies。
She； trembling； charmingly afraid； would raise her double black veil as
far as her nose； and then take up her glass with the enjoyment that one
feels at doing something delightfully naughty。 Each cherry she swallowed
made her feel as if she had done something wrong； each swallow of the
burning liquor had on her the affect of a delicate and forbidden
enjoyment。
Then she would say to me in a low tone： 〃Let us go。〃 And we would leave；
she walking quickly with lowered head between the drinkers who watched
her going by with a look of displeasure。 And as soon as we got into the
street she would give a great sigh of relief； as if we had escaped some
terrible danger。
Sometimes she would ask me with a shudder：
〃Suppose they； should say something rude to me in those places； what
would you do？〃 〃Why； I would defend you； parbleu！〃 I would reply in a
resolute manner。 And she would squeeze my arm for happiness； perhaps
with a vague wish that she might be insulted and protected； that she
might see men fight on her account； even those men； with me！
One evening as we sat at a table in a tavern at Montmartre； we saw an old
woman in tattered garments come in； holding in her hand a pack of dirty
cards。 Perceiving a lady； the old woman at once approached us and
offered to tell my friend's fortune。 Emma； who in her heart believed in
everything； was trembling with longing and anxiety； and she made a place
beside her for the old woman。
The latter； old； wrinkled； her eyes with red inflamed rings round them；
and her mouth without a single tooth in it； began to deal her dirty cards
on the table。 She dealt them in piles； then gathered them up； and then
dealt them out again； murmuring indistinguishable words。 Emma； turning
pale； listened with bated breath； gasping with anxiety and curiosity。
The fortune…teller broke silence。 She predicted vague happenings：
happiness and children； a fair young man； a voyage； money； a lawsuit； a
dark man； the return of some one； success； a death。 The mention of this
death attracted the younger woman's attention。 〃Whose death？ When？ In
what manner？〃
The old woman replied： 〃Oh； as to that； these cards are not certain
enough。 You must come to my place to…morrow； I will tell you about it
with coffee grounds which never make a mistake。〃
Emma turned anxiously to me：
〃Say； let us go there to…morrow。 Oh； please say yes。 If not； you cannot
imagine how worried I shall be。〃
I began to laugh。
〃We will go if you wish it； dearie。〃
The old woman gave us her address。 She lived on the sixth floor； in a
wretched house behind the Buttes…Chaumont。 We went there the following
day。
Her room； an attic containing two chairs and a bed； was filled with
strange objects； bunches of herbs hanging from nails； skins of animals；
flasks and phials containing liquids of various colors。 On the table a
stuffed black cat looked out of eyes of glass。 He seemed like the demon
of this sinister dwelling。
Emma； almost fainting with emotion； sat down on a chair and exclaimed：
〃Oh； dear； look at that cat； how like it is to Misti。〃
And she explained to the old woman that she had a cat 〃exactly like that；
exactly like that！〃
The old woman replied gravely：
〃If you are in love with a man； you must not keep it。〃
Emma； suddenly filled with fear； asked：
〃Why not？〃
The old woman sat down familiarly beside her and took her hand。
〃It was the undoing of my life；〃 she said。
My friend wanted to hear about it。 She leaned against the old woman；
questioned her； begged her to tell。 At length the woman agreed to do so。
〃I loved that cat；〃 she said； 〃as one would love a brother。 I was young
then and all alone； a seamstress。 I had only him； Mouton。 One of the
tenants had given it to me。 He was as intelligent as a child； and gentle
as well； and he worshiped me； my dear lady； he worshiped me more than one
does a fetish。 All day long he would sit on my lap purring； and all
night long on my pillow； I could feel his heart beating； in fact。
〃Well； I happened to make an acquaintance； a fine young man who was
working in a white…goods house。 That went on for about three months on a
footing of mere friendship。 But you know one is liable to weaken； it may
happen to any one； and； besides； I had really begun to love him。 He was
so nice； so nice； and so good。 He wanted us to live together； for
economy's sake。 I finally allowed him to come and see me one evening。 I
had not made up my mind to anything definite； oh； no！ But I was pleased
at the idea that we should spend an hour together。
〃At first he behaved very well； said nice things to me that made my heart
go pit…a…pat。 And then he kissed me； madame； kissed me as one does when
they love。 I remained motionless； my eyes closed； in a paroxysm of
happiness。 But； suddenly； I felt him start violently and he gave a
scream； a scream that I shall never forget。