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〃You　have　seven　thousand；　two　hundred　francs　of　your　own；〃　the

old　gentleman　said　in　his　ear。　〃Take　my　advice　and　go　away　with

your　winnings；　red　has　turned　up　eight　times　already。　If　you　are

charitable；　you　will　show　your　gratitude　for　sound　counsel　by

giving　a　trifle　to　an　old　prefect　of　Napoleon　who　is　down　on　his

luck。〃



Rastignac's　head　was　swimming；　he　saw　ten　of　his　louis　pass　into

the　white…haired　man's　possession；　and　went　down…stairs　with　his

seven　thousand　francs；　he　was　still　ignorant　of　the　game；　and

stupefied　by　his　luck。



〃So；　that　is　over；　and　now　where　will　you　take　me？〃　he　asked；　as

soon　as　the　door　was　closed；　and　he　showed　the　seven　thousand

francs　to　Mme。　de　Nucingen。



Delphine　flung　her　arms　about　him；　but　there　was　no　passion　in

that　wild　embrace。



〃You　have　saved　me！〃　she　cried；　and　tears　of　joy　flowed　fast。



〃I　will　tell　you　everything；　my　friend。　For　you　will　be　my

friend；　will　you　not？　I　am　rich；　you　think；　very　rich；　I　have

everything　I　want；　or　I　seem　as　if　I　had　everything。　Very　well；

you　must　know　that　M。　de　Nucingen　does　not　allow　me　the　control

of　a　single　penny；　he　pays　all　the　bills　for　the　house　expenses；

he　pays　for　my　carriages　and　opera　box；　he　does　not　give　me

enough　to　pay　for　my　dress；　and　he　reduces　me　to　poverty　in

secret　on　purpose。　I　am　too　proud　to　beg　from　him。　I　should　be

the　vilest　of　women　if　I　could　take　his　money　at　the　price　at

which　he　offers　it。　Do　you　ask　how　I；　with　seven　hundred　thousand

francs　of　my　own；　could　let　myself　be　robbed？　It　is　because　I　was

proud；　and　scorned　to　speak。　We　are　so　young；　so　artless　when　our

married　life　begins！　I　never　could　bring　myself　to　ask　my　husband

for　money；　the　words　would　have　made　my　lips　bleed；　I　did　not

dare　to　ask；　I　spent　my　savings　first；　and　then　the　money　that　my

poor　father　gave　me；　then　I　ran　into　debt。　Marriage　for　me　is　a

hideous　farce；　I　cannot　talk　about　it；　let　it　suffice　to　say　that

Nucingen　and　I　have　separate　rooms；　and　that　I　would　fling　myself

out　of　the　window　sooner　than　consent　to　any　other　manner　of

life。　I　suffered　agonies　when　I　had　to　confess　to　my　girlish

extravagance；　my　debts　for　jewelry　and　trifles　（for　our　poor

father　had　never　refused　us　anything；　and　spoiled　us）；　but　at

last　I　found　courage　to　tell　him　about　them。　After　all；　I　had　a

fortune　of　my　own。　Nucingen　flew　into　a　rage；　he　said　that　I

should　be　the　ruin　of　him；　and　used　frightful　language！　I　wished

myself　a　hundred　feet　down　in　the　earth。　He　had　my　dowry；　so　he

paid　my　debts；　but　he　stipulated　at　the　same　time　that　my

expenses　in　future　must　not　exceed　a　certain　fixed　sum；　and　I

gave　way　for　the　sake　of　peace。　And　then；〃　she　went　on；　〃I　wanted

to　gratify　the　self…love　of　some　one　whom　you　know。　He　may　have

deceived　me；　but　I　should　do　him　the　justice　to　say　that　there

was　nothing　petty　in　his　character。　But；　after　all；　he　threw　me

over　disgracefully。　If；　at　a　woman's　utmost　need；　SOMEBODY　heaps

gold　upon　her；　he　ought　never　to　forsake　her；　that　love　should

last　for　ever！　But　you；　at　one…and…twenty；　you；　the　soul　of

honor；　with　the　unsullied　conscience　of　youth；　will　ask　me　how　a

woman　can　bring　herself　to　accept　money　in　such　a　way？　MON　DIEU！

is　it　not　natural　to　share　everything　with　the　one　to　whom　we　owe

our　happiness？　When　all　has　been　given；　why　should　we　pause　and

hesitate　over　a　part？　Money　is　as　nothing　between　us　until　the

moment　when　the　sentiment　that　bound　us　together　ceases　to　exist。

Were　we　not　bound　to　each　other　for　life？　Who　that　believes　in

love　foresees　such　an　end　to　love？　You　swear　to　love　us

eternally；　how；　then；　can　our　interests　be　separate？



〃You　do　not　know　how　I　suffered　to…day　when　Nucingen　refused　to

give　me　six　thousand　francs；　he　spends　as　much　as　that　every

month　on　his　mistress；　an　opera　dancer！　I　thought　of　killing

myself。　The　wildest　thoughts　came　into　my　head。　There　have　been

moments　in　my　life　when　I　have　envied　my　servants；　and　would　have

changed　places　with　my　maid。　It　was　madness　to　think　of　going　to

our　father；　Anastasie　and　I　have　bled　him　dry；　our　poor　father

would　have　sold　himself　if　he　could　have　raised　six　thousand

francs　that　way。　I　should　have　driven　him　frantic　to　no　purpose。

You　have　saved　me　from　shame　and　death；　I　was　beside　myself　with

anguish。　Ah！　monsieur；　I　owed　you　this　explanation　after　my　mad

ravings。　When　you　left　me　just　now；　as　soon　as　you　were　out　of

sight；　I　longed　to　escape；　to　run　away　。　。　。　where；　I　did　not

know。　Half　the　women　in　Paris　lead　such　lives　as　mine；　they　live

in　apparent　luxury；　and　in　their　souls　are　tormented　by　anxiety。

I　know　of　poor　creatures　even　more　miserable　than　I；　there　are

women　who　are　driven　to　ask　their　tradespeople　to　make　out　false

bills；　women　who　rob　their　husbands。　Some　men　believe　that　an

Indian　shawl　worth　a　thousand　louis　only　cost　five　hundred

francs；　others　that　a　shawl　costing　five　hundred　francs　is　worth

a　hundred　louis。　There　are　women；　too；　with　narrow　incomes；　who

scrape　and　save　and　starve　their　children　to　pay　for　a　dress。　I

am　innocent　of　these　base　meannesses。　But　this　is　the　last

extremity　of　my　torture。　Some　women　will　sell　themselves　to　their

husbands；　and　so　obtain　their　way；　but　I；　at　any　rate；　am　free。

If　I　chose；　Nucingen　would　cover　me　with　gold；　but　I　would　rather

weep　on　the　breast　of　a　man　whom　I　can　respect。　Ah！　tonight；　M。

de　Marsay　will　no　longer　have　a　right　to　think　of　me　as　a　woman

whom　he　has　paid。〃　She　tried　to　conceal　her　tears　from　him；

hiding　her　face　in　her　hands；　Eugene　drew　them　away　and　looked　at

her；　she　seemed　to　him　sublime　at　that　moment。



〃It　is　hideous；　is　it　not；〃　she　cried；　〃to　speak　in　a　breath　of

money　and　affection。　You　cannot　love　me　after　this；〃　she　added。



The　incongruity　between　the　ideas　of　honor　which　make　women　so

great；　and　the　errors　in　conduct　which　are　forced　upon　them　by

the　constitution　of　society；　had　thrown　Eugene's　thoughts　into

confusion；　he　uttered　soothing　and　consoling　words；　and　wondered

at　the　beautiful　woman　before　him；　and　at　the　artless　imprudence

of　her　cry　of　pain。



〃You　will　not　remember　this　against　me？〃　she　asked；　〃promise　me

that　you　will　not。〃



〃Ah！　madame；　I　am　incapable　of　doing　so；〃　he　said。　She　took　his

hand　and　held　it　to　her　heart；　a　movement　full　of　grace　that

expressed　her　deep　gratitude。



〃I　am　free　and　happy　once　more；　thanks　to　you；〃　she　said。　〃Oh！　I

have　felt　lately　as　if　I　were　in　the　grasp　of　an　iron　hand。　But

after　this　I　mean　to　live　simply　and　to　spend　nothing。　You　will

think　me　just　as　pretty；　will　you　not；　my　friend？　Keep　this；〃　she

went　on；　as　she　took　only　six　of　the　banknotes。　〃In　conscience　I

owe　you　a　thousand　crowns；　for　I　really　ought　to　go　halves　with

you。〃



Eugene's　maiden　conscience　resisted；　but　when　the　Baroness　said；

〃I　am　bound　to　look　on　you　as　an　accomplice　or　as　an　enemy；〃　he

took　the　money。



〃It　shall　be　a　last　stake　in　reserve；〃　he　said；　〃in　case　of

misfortune。〃



〃That　was　what　I　was　dreading　to　hear；〃　she　cried；　turning　pale。

〃Oh；　if　you　would　that　I　should　be　anything　to　you；　swear　to　me

that　you　will　never　re…enter　a　gaming…house。　Great　Heaven！　that　I

should　corrupt　you！　I　should　die　of　sorrow！〃



They　had　reached　the　Rue　Saint…Lazare　by　this　time。　The　contrast

between　the　ostentation　of　wealth　in　the　house；　and　the　wretched

condition　of　its　mistress；　dazed　the　student；　and　Vautrin's

cynical　words　began　to　ring　in　his　ears。



〃Seat　yourself　there；〃　said　the　Baroness；　pointing　to　a　low　chair

beside　the　fire。　〃I　have　a　difficult　letter　to　write；〃　she　added。

〃Tell　me　what　to　say。〃



〃Say　nothing；〃　Eugene　answered　her。　〃Put　the　bills　in　an

envelope；　direct　it；　and　send　it　by　your　maid。〃



〃Why；　you　are　a　love　of　a　man；〃　she　said。　〃Ah！　see　what　it　is　to

have　been　well　brought　up。　That　is　the　Beauseant　through　and

through；〃　she　went　on；　smiling　at　him。



〃She　is　charming；〃　thought　Eugene；　more　and　more　in　love。　He

looked　round　him　at　the　room；　there　was　an　ostentatious　character

about　the　luxury；　a　meretricious　taste　in　the　splendor。



〃Do　you　like　it？〃　she　asked；　as　she　rang　for　the　maid。



〃Therese；　take　this　to　M。　de　Marsay；　and　give　it　into　his　hands

yourself。　If　he　is　not　at　home；　bring　the　letter　back　to　me。〃



Therese　went；　but　not　before　she　had　given　Eugene　a　spiteful

glance。



Dinner　was　announced。　Rastignac　gave　his　arm　to　Mme。　de　Nucingen；

she　led　the　way　into　a　pretty　dining…room；　and　again　he　saw　the

luxury　of　the　table　which　he　had　admired　in　his　cousin's　house。



〃Come　and　dine　with　me　on　opera　evenings；　and　we　will　go　to　the

Italiens　afterwards；〃　she　said。



〃I　should　soon　grow　used　to　the　pleasant　life　if　it　could　last；

but　I　am　a　poor　student；　and　I　have　my　way　to　make。〃



〃Oh！　you　will　succeed；〃　she　said　laughing。　〃You　will　see。　All

that　you　wish　will　come　to　pass。　_I_　did　not　expect　to　be　so

happy。〃



It　is　the　wont　of　women　to　prove　the　impossible　by　the　possible；

and　to　annihilate　facts　by　presentiments。　When　Mme。　de　Nucingen

and　Rastignac　took　their　places　in　her　box　at　the　Bouffons；　her

face　wore　a　look　of　happiness　that　made　her　so　lovely　that　every

one　indulged　in　those　small　slanders　against　which　women　are

defenceless；　for　the　scandal　that　is　uttered　lightly　is　often

seriously　believed。　Those　who　know　Paris；　believe　nothing　that　is

said；　and　say　nothing　of　what　is　done　there。



Eugene　took　the　Baroness'　hand　in　his；　and　by　some　light　pressure

of　the　fingers；　or　a　closer　grasp　of　the　hand；　they　found　a

language　in　which　to　express　the　sensations　which　the　music　gave

them。　It　was　an　evening　of　intoxicating　delight　for　both；　and

when　it　ended；　and　they　went　out　together；　Mme。　de　Nucingen

insisted　on　taking　Eugene　with　her　as　far　as　the　Pont　Neuf；　he

disputing　with　her　the　whole　of　the　way　for　a　single　kiss　after

all　those　that　she　had　showered　upon　him　so　pa