fool。 I don't understand anything； my dear fellow。 I simply wish to live！ I am unable to think。 I feel disgusted； one says this； another that！ Pshaw！ But she； eh！ If you knew。 My hope was in her。 I expected of herjust what I expected； I cannot tell； but she is the best of women！ And I had so much faith in herwhen sometimes she spoke such peculiar words； all her own。 Her eyes； my dear boy； are so beautiful！ 0h Lord！ I was ashamed to look upon them； and as I am telling you； she would say a few words； and everything would become clear to me。 For I did not come to her with love aloneI came to her with all my soul！ I soughtI thought that since she was so beautiful； consequently； I might become a man by her side！〃
Ookhtishchev listened to the painful； unconnected words that burst from his companion's lips。 He saw how the muscles of his face contracted with the effort to express his thoughts； and he felt that behind this bombast there was a great； serious grief。 There was something intensely pathetic in the powerlessness of this strong and savage youth； who suddenly started to pace the sidewalk with big； uneven steps。 Skipping along after him with his short legs； Ookhtishchev felt it his duty somehow to calm Foma。 Everything Foma had said and done that evening awakened in the jolly secretary a feeling of lively curiosity toward Foma； and then he felt flattered by the frankness of the young millionaire。 This frankness confused him with its dark power； he was disconcerted by its pressure； and though； in spite of his youth； he had a stock of words ready for all occasions in life； it took him quite awhile to recall them。
〃I feel that everything is dark and narrow about me；〃 said Gordyeeff。 〃I feel that a burden is falling on my shoulders； but what it is I cannot understand！ It puts a restraint on me； and it checks the freedom of my movements along the road of life。 Listening to people； you hear that each says a different thing。 But she could have said〃
〃Eh； my dear boy！〃 Ookhtishchev interrupted Foma； gently taking his arm。 〃That isn't right！ You have just started to live and already you are philosophizing！ No； that is not right！ Life is given us to live！ Which meanslive and let others live。 That's the philosophy！ And that woman。 Bah！ Is she then the only one in the world？ The world is large enough。 If you wish； I'll introduce you to such a virile woman； that even the slightest trace of your philosophy would at once vanish from your soul！ Oh； a remarkable woman！ And how well she knows how to avail herself of life！ Do you know； there's also something epic about her？ She is beautiful； a Phryne； I may say； and what a match she would be to you！ Ah； devil！ It is really a splendid idea。 I'll make you acquainted with her！ We must drive one nail out with another。〃
〃My conscience does not allow it；〃 said Foma； sadly and sternly。 〃So long as she is alive； I cannot even look at women。〃
〃Such a robust and healthy young man。 Ho； ho！〃 exclaimed Ookhtishchev； and in the tone of a teacher began to argue with Foma that it was essential for him to give his passion an outlet in a good spree； in the company of women。
〃This will be magnificent； and it is indispensable to you。 You may believe me。 And as to conscience； you must excuse me。 You don't define it quite properly。 It is not conscience that interferes with you； but timidity； I believe。 You live outside of society。 You are bashful； and awkward。 Youare dimly conscious of all this； and it is this consciousness that you mistake for conscience。 In this case there can be no question about conscience。 What has conscience to do here； since it is natural for man to enjoy himself； since it is his necessity and his right？〃
Foma walked on； regulating his steps to those of his companion； and staring along the road； which lay between two rows of buildings； resembled an enormous ditch； and was filled with darkness。 It seemed that there was no end to the road and that something dark； inexhaustible and suffocating was slowly flowing along it in the distance。 Ookhtishchev's kind； suasive voice rang monotonously in Foma's ears； and though he was not listening to his words； he felt that they were tenacious in their way； that they adhered to him； and that he was involuntarily memorizing them。 Notwithstanding that a man walked beside him； he felt as though he were alone； straying in the dark。 And the darkness seized him and slowly drew him along； and he felt that he was drawn somewhere； and yet had no desire to stop。 Some sort of fatigue hindered his thinking； there was no desire in him to resist the admonitions of his companionand why should he resist them？
〃It isn't for everyone to philosophize；〃 said Ookhtishchev； swinging his cane in the air； and somewhat carried away by his wisdom。 〃For if everybody were to philosophize； who would live？ And we live but once！ And therefore it were best to make haste to live。 By God！ That's true！ But what's the use of talking？ Would you permit me to give you a shaking up？ Let's go immediately to a pleasure…house I know。 Two sisters live there。 Ah； how they live！ You will come？〃
〃Well； I'll go；〃 said Foma； calmly； and yawned。 〃Isn't it rather late？〃 he asked； looking up at the sky which was covered with clouds。
〃It's never too late to go to see them！〃 exclaimed Ookhtishchev； merrily。
CHAPTER VIII
ON the third day after the scene in the club； Foma found himself about seven versts from the town； on the timber…wharf of the merchant Zvantzev； in the company of the merchant's son of Ookhtishchev a sedate； bald…headed and red…nosed gentleman with side whiskers and four ladies。 The young Zvantzev wore eyeglasses； was thin and pale； and when he stood； the calves of his legs were forever trembling as though they were disgusted at supporting the feeble body； clad in a long； checked top…coat with a cape； in whose folds a small head in a jockey cap was comically shaking。 The gentleman with the side whiskers called him Jean and pronounced this name as though he was suffering from an inveterate cold。 Jean's lady was a tall； stout woman with a showy bust。 Her head was compressed on the sides； her low forehead receded； her long； sharp…pointed nose gave her face an expression somewhat bird…like。 And this ugly face was perfectly motionless； and the eyes alone； small； round and cold； were forever smiling a penetrating and cunning smile。 Ookhtishchev's lady's name was Vera； she was a tall； pale woman with red hair。 She had so much hair； that it seemed as though the woman had put on her head an enormous cap which was coming down over her ears； her cheeks and her high forehead； from under which her large blue eyes looked forth calmly and lazily。
The gentleman with the side whiskers sat beside a young； plump； buxom girl； who constantly giggled in a ringing voice at something which he whispered in her ear as he leaned over her shoulder。
And Foma's lady was a stately brunette； clad all in black。 Dark… complexioned； with wavy locks； she kept her head so erect and high and looked at everything about her with such condescending haughtiness； that it was at once evident that she considered herself the most important person there。
The company were seated on the extreme link of the raft； extending far into the smooth expanse of the river。 Boards were spread out on the raft and in the centre stood a crudely constructed table； empty bottles； provision baskets； candy… wrappers and orange peels were scattered about everywhere。 In the corner of the raft was a pile of earth； upon which a bonfire was burning； and a peasant in a short fur coat； squatting； warmed his hands over the fire； and cast furtive glances at the people seated around the table。 They had just finished eating their sturgeon soup； and now wines and fruits were before them on the table。
Fatigued with a two…days' spree and with the dinner that had just been finished； the company was in a weary frame of mind。 They all gazed at the river； chatting； but their conversation was now and again interrupted by long pauses。
The day was clear and bright and young； as in spring。 The cold； clear sky stretched itself majestically over the turbid water of the gigantically…wide； overflowing river； which was as calm as the sky and as vast as the sea。 The distant； mountainous shore was tenderly bathed in bluish mist。 Through it； there； on the mountain tops； the crosses of churches were flashing like big stars。 The river was animated at the mountainous shore； steamers were going hither and thither； and their noise came in deep moans toward the rafts and into the meadows； where the calm flow of the waves filled the air with soft and faint sounds。 Gigantic barges stretched themselves one after another against the current； like huge pigs； tearing asunder the smooth expanse of the river。 Black smoke came in ponderous puffs from the chimneys of the steamers； slowly melting in the fresh air； which was full of bright sunshine。 At times a whistle resoundedit was like the roar of some huge； enraged animal； embittered by toil。 And on the meadows near the rafts； all was calm and silent。 Solitary trees that had been drowned by the flood； were now already covered with light… green spangles of foliage。 Covering their roots and reflecting their tops； the water gave them the appearance of globes； and it seemed as though the slightest breeze would send them floating； fantastically beautiful； down the mirror…like bosom of the river。
The red…haired woman； pensively gazing into the distance； began to sing softly and sadly：
〃Along the Volga river A little boat is flo…o…oating。〃
The brunette； snapping her large； stern eyes with contempt； said； without looking at her： 〃We feel gloomy enough without this。〃
〃Don't touch her。 Let her sing！〃 entreated Foma； kindly； looking into his lady's face。 He was pale some spark seemed to flash up in his eyes now and then； and an indefinite； indolent smile played about his lips。
〃Let us sing in chorus！〃 suggested the man with the side whiskers。
〃No； let these two sing！〃 exclaimed Ookhtishchev with enthusiasm。 〃Vera； sing that song！ You know； 'I will go at dawn。' How is it？ Sing； Pavlinka！〃
The giggling girl glanced at the brunette and asked her respectfully：
〃Shall I sing； Sasha？〃
〃I shall sing myself；〃 a