actually growing a little soft and a little clouded。 Humanity and fallibility are infectious things； was it possible that Lehzen's prim pupil had caught them？ That she was beginning to listen to siren voices？ That the secret impulses of self…expression； of self…indulgence even； were mastering her life？ For a moment the child of a new age looked back； and wavered towards the eighteenth century。 It was the most critical moment of her career。 Had those influences lasted； the development of her character； the history of her life； would have been completely changed。
And why should they not last？ She； for one； was very anxious that they should。 Let them last for ever！ She was surrounded by Whigs； she was free to do whatever she wanted； she had Lord M。； she could not believe that she could ever be happier。 Any change would be for the worse； and the worst change of all。。。 no； she would not hear of it； it would be quite intolerable； it would upset everything； if she were to marry。 And yet everyone seemed to want her tothe general public； the Ministers； her Saxe…Coburg relationsit was always the same story。 Of course； she knew very well that there were excellent reasons for it。 For one thing； if she remained childless； and were to die； her uncle Cumberland； who was now the King of Hanover； would succeed to the Throne of England。 That； no doubt； would be a most unpleasant event； and she entirely sympathised with everybody who wished to avoid it。 But there was no hurry； naturally； she would marry in the endbut not just yetnot for three or four years。 What was tiresome was that her uncle Leopold had apparently determined； not only that she ought to marry； but that her cousin Albert ought to be her husband。 That was very like her uncle Leopold； who wanted to have a finger in every pie； and it was true that long ago； in far…off days； before her accession even； she had written to him in a way which might well have encouraged him in such a notion。 She had told him then that Albert possessed 〃every quality that could be desired to render her perfectly happy；〃 and had begged her 〃dearest uncle to take care of the health of one； now so dear to me； and to take him under your special protection；〃 adding； 〃I hope and trust all will go on prosperously and well on this subject of so much importance to me。〃 But that had been years ago； when she was a mere child； perhaps； indeed； to judge from the language； the letter had been dictated by Lehzen； at any rate； her feelings； and all the circumstances； had now entirely changed。 Albert hardly interested her at all。
In later life the Queen declared that she had never for a moment dreamt of marrying anyone but her cousin； her letters and diaries tell a very different story。 On August 26； 1837； she wrote in her journal： 〃To…day is my dearest cousin Albert's 18th birthday； and I pray Heaven to pour its choicest blessings on his beloved head！〃 In the subsequent years； however； the date passes unnoticed。 It had been arranged that Stockmar should accompany the Prince to Italy； and the faithful Baron left her side for that purpose。 He wrote to her more than once with sympathetic descriptions of his young companion； but her mind was by this time made up。 She liked and admired Albert very much； but she did not want to marry him。 〃At present；〃 she told Lord Melbourne in April； 1839； 〃my feeling is quite against ever marrying。〃 When her cousin's Italian tour came to an end； she began to grow nervous； she knew that； according to a long…standing engagement； his next journey would be to England。 He would probably arrive in the autumn； and by July her uneasiness was intense。 She determined to write to her uncle； in order to make her position clear。 It must be understood she said； that 〃there is no no engagement between us。〃 If she should like Albert； she could 〃make no final promise this year； for； at the very earliest； any such event could not take place till two or three years hence。〃 She had； she said； 〃a great repugnance〃 to change her present position； and； if she should not like him； she was 〃very anxious that it should be understood that she would not be guilty of any breach of promise； for she never gave any。〃 To Lord Melbourne she was more explicit。 She told him that she 〃had no great wish to see Albert； as the whole subject was an odious one；〃 she hated to have to decide about it； and she repeated once again that seeing Albert would be 〃a disagreeable thing。〃 But there was no escaping the horrid business； the visit must be made； and she must see him。 The summer slipped by and was over； it was the autumn already； on the evening of October 10 Albert； accompanied by his brother Ernest； arrived at Windsor。
Albert arrived； and the whole structure of her existence crumbled into nothingness like a house of cards。 He was beautifulshe gaspedshe knew no more。 Then； in a flash； a thousand mysteries were revealed to her； the past； the present； rushed upon her with a new significance； the delusions of years were abolished； and an extraordinary； an irresistible certitude leapt into being in the light of those blue eyes； the smile of that lovely mouth。 The succeeding hours passed in a rapture。 She was able to observe a few more detailsthe 〃exquisite nose；〃 the 〃delicate moustachios and slight but very slight whiskers；〃 the 〃beautiful figure； broad in the shoulders and a fine waist。〃 She rode with him； danced with him； talked with him； and it was all perfection。 She had no shadow of a doubt。 He had come on a Thursday evening； and on the following Sunday morning she told Lord Melbourne that she had 〃a good deal changed her opinion as to marrying。〃 Next morning； she told him that she had made up her mind to marry Albert。 The morning after that； she sent for her cousin。 She received him alone； and 〃after a few minutes I said to him that I thought he must be aware why I wished them to come hereand that it would make me too happy if be would consent to what I wished （to marry me。）〃 Then 〃we embraced each other； and he was so kind； so affectionate。〃 She said that she was quite unworthy of him； while he murmured that he would be very happy 〃Das Leben mit dir zu zubringen。〃 They parted； and she felt 〃the happiest of human beings；〃 when Lord M。 came in。 At first she beat about the bush； and talked of the weather； and indifferent subjects。 Somehow or other she felt a little nervous with her old friend。 At last； summoning up her courage； she said； 〃I have got well through this with Albert。〃 〃Oh！ you have；〃 said Lord M。
CHAPTER IV。 MARRIAGE
I
It was decidedly a family match。 Prince Francis Charles Augustus Albert Emmanuel of Saxe…CoburgGothafor such was his full titlehad been born just three months after his cousin Victoria； and the same midwife had assisted at the two births。 The children's grandmother； the Dowager Duchess of Coburg； had from the first looked forward to their marriage； as they grew up； the Duke； the Duchess of Kent； and King Leopold came equally to desire it。 The Prince； ever since the time when； as a child of three； his nurse had told him that some day 〃the little English May flower〃 would be his wife； had never thought of marrying anyone else。 When eventually Baron Stockmar himself signified his assent； the affair seemed as good as settled。
The Duke had one other childPrince Ernest； Albert's senior by one year； and heir to the principality。 The Duchess was a sprightly and beautiful woman； with fair hair and blue eyes； Albert was very like her and was her declared favourite。 But in his fifth year he was parted from her for ever。 The ducal court was not noted for the strictness of its morals； the Duke was a man of gallantry； and it was rumoured that the Duchess followed her husband's example。 There were scandals： one of the Court Chamberlains； a charming and cultivated man of Jewish extraction； was talked of； at last there was a separation； followed by a divorce。 The Duchess retired to Paris； and died unhappily in 1831。 Her memory was always very dear to Albert。
He grew up a pretty； clever； and high…spirited boy。 Usually well…behaved； he was； however； sometimes violent。 He had a will of his own； and asserted it； his elder brother was less passionate； less purposeful； and； in their wrangles； it was Albert who came out top。 The two boys； living for the most part in one or other of the Duke's country houses； among pretty hills and woods and streams； had been at a very early ageAlbert was less than fourseparated from their nurses and put under a tutor； in whose charge they remained until they went to the University。 They were brought up in a simple and unostentatious manner； for the Duke was poor and the duchy very small and very insignificant。 Before long it became evident that Albert was a model lad。 Intelligent and painstaking； he had been touched by the moral earnestness of his generation； at the age of eleven he surprised his father by telling him that he hoped to make himself 〃a good and useful man。〃 And yet he was not over…serious； though； perhaps； he had little humour； he was full of funof practical jokes and mimicry。 He was no milksop； he rode； and shot； and fenced； above all did he delight in being out of doors； and never was he happier than in his long rambles with his brother through the wild country round his beloved Rosenaustalking the deer； admiring the scenery； and returning laden with specimens for his natural history collection。 He was； besides； passionately fond of music。 In one particular it was observed that he did not take after his father： owing either to his peculiar upbringing or to a more fundamental idiosyncrasy he had a marked distaste for the opposite sex。 At the age of five； at a children's dance； he screamed with disgust and anger when a little girl was led up to him for a partner； and though； later on； he grew more successful in disguising such feelings； the feelings remained。
The brothers were very popular in Coburg； and； when the time came for them to be confirmed； the preliminary examination which； according to ancient custom； was held in public in the 〃Giants' Hall〃 of the Castle； was attended by an enthusiastic crowd of functionaries； clergy； delegates from the villages of the duchy； and miscellaneous onlookers。 There were also present； besides the Duke and the Dowager Duche