〃No；〃 the girl said。 〃She went off on her bike。〃
〃My God；〃 David said。 〃She hasn't ridden a bike since we bought the Bug。〃
〃That's what she said。 She's taking it up again。 Did you have a good morning？〃
〃I don't know。 I'll know tomorrow。〃
〃Are you eating breakfast？〃
〃I don't know。 It's late。〃
〃I wish you would。〃
〃I'll go in and get cleaned up；〃 he told her。
He had taken a shower and was shaving when Catherine came in。 She was wearing an old Grau du Roi shirt and short linen slacks chopped off below the knees and she was hot and her shirt was wet through。
〃It's wonderful；〃 she said。 〃But I'd forgotten what it does to your upper thighs when you climb。〃
〃Did you ride very far； Devil？〃
〃Six kilometers；〃 she said。 〃It was nothing but I'd forgotten about the c6tes。〃
〃It's awfully hot to ride now unless you go in the very early mornings；〃 David said。 〃I'm glad you started again though。〃
She was under the shower now and when she came out she said； 〃Now see how dark we are together。 We're just the way we planned。〃
〃You're darker。〃
〃Not much。 You're terribly dark too。 Look at us together。〃 They looked at each other standing touching in the long mirror on the door。
〃Oh you like us；〃 she said。 〃That's nice。 So do I。 Touch here and see。〃
She stood very straight and he put his hand on her breasts。
〃I'll put on one of my tight shirts so you can tell what I think
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about things；〃 she said。 〃Isn't it funny our hair hasn't any color at all when it's wet？ It's pale as seaweed。〃
She took a comb and combed her hair straight back so it looked as though she had just come out of the sea。
〃I'm going to wear mine this way now again；〃 she said。 〃Like Grau du Roi and here in the spring。〃
〃I like it across your forehead。〃
〃I'm tired of that。 But I can do it if you like。 Do you think we could go into town and have breakfast at the cafe？〃
〃Haven't you had breakfast？〃
〃I wanted to wait for you。〃
〃All right；〃 he said。 〃Let's go in and get breakfast。 I'm hungry too。
They had a very good breakfast of cafe au lait； brioche and strawberry jam and oeufs au plat avec jambon and when they were finished Catherine asked； 〃Would you come over with me to Jean's？ It's the day I go to get my hair washed and I'm going to have it cut。〃
〃I'll wait here for you。〃
〃Wouldn't you please come？ You did it before and it wasn't bad for anybody。〃
〃No； Devil。 I did once but that was just once。 Like getting tattooed or something。 Don't ask me to。〃
〃It doesn't mean anything except to me。 I want us to be just the same。
〃We can't be the same。〃
〃Yes we could if you'd let us。
〃I really don't want to do it。〃
〃Not if I say it's all I want？〃
〃Why can't you want something that makes sense？〃
〃I do。 But I want us to be the same and you almost are and it wouldn't be any trouble to do。 The sea's done all the work。〃
〃Then let the sea do it。〃
〃I want it for today。〃
〃Then you'll be happy I suppose。
〃I'm happy now because you're going to do it and I'll stay happy。 You love how I look。 You know you do。 Think of it that way。
〃It's silly。〃
〃No it isn't。 Not when it's you and you do it to please me。〃
〃How badly will you feel if I don't？〃
〃I don't know。 But very。〃
〃All right；〃 he said。 〃It really means all that to you？〃
〃Yes；〃 she said。 〃Oh； thank you。 It won't take very long this time。 I told Jean we'd be there and he's staying open for us。〃
〃Are you always that confident I'll do things？〃
〃I knew you would if you knew how much I wanted it。〃
〃I wanted very much not to。 You shouldn't ask it。〃
〃You won't care。 It's nothing and afterwards it will be fun。 Don't worry about Marita。〃
〃What about her？〃
〃She said that if you wouldn't do it for me to ask you if you'd do it for her。〃
〃Don't make things up。〃
〃No。 She said it this morning。〃
〃I wish you could see yourself；〃 Catherine said。
〃I'm glad I can't。〃
〃I wish you'd looked in the glass。〃
〃I couldn't。〃
〃Just look at me。 That's how you are and I did it and there's nothing you can do now。 That's how you look。〃
〃We couldn't really have done that；〃 David said。 〃I couldn't look the way you do。〃
'Well； we did；〃 Catherine said。 〃And you do。 So you better start to like it。〃 xx
〃We can't have done that； Devil。〃
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〃Yes we did。 You knew it too。 You just wouldn't look。 And we re damned now。 I was and now you are。 Look at me and see how much you like it。〃
David looked at her eyes that he loved and at her dark face and the incredibly flat ivory color of her hair and at how happy she looked and he began to realize what a completely stupid thing he had permitted。
Chapter Twenty…two
HE DID NOT THINK that he could go on with the story that morning and for a long time he could not。 But he knew that he must and finally he had started and they were following the spoor of the elephant on an old elephant trail that was a hard packed worn road through the forest。 It looked as though elephants had travelled it ever since the lava had cooled from the mountain and the trees had first grown tall and close。 Juma was very confident and they moved fast。 Both his father and Juma seemed very sure of themselves and the going on the elephant road was so easy that Juma gave him the 。303 to carry as they went on through the broken light of the forest。 Then they lost the trail in smoking piles of fresh dung and the flat round prints of a herd of elephants that had come onto the elephant road from the heavy forest on the left of the trail。 Juma had taken the 。303 from David angrily。 It was afternoon before they had worked up to the herd and around it seeing the gray bulks through the trees and the movement of the big ears and the searching trunks coiling and uncoiling； the crash of branches broken； the crash
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of trees pushed over and the rumbling in the bellies of the elephants and the slap and thud of the dung falling。
They had found the trail of the old bull finally and when it turned off onto a smaller elephant road Juma had looked at David's father and grinned showing his filed teeth and his father had nodded his head。 They looked as though they had a dirty secret； just as they had looked when he had found them that night at the shamba。
It was not very long before they came on the secret。 It was off to the right in the forest and the tracks of the old bull led to it。 It was a skull as high as David's chest and white from the sun and the rains。 There was a deep depression in the forehead and ridges ran from between the bare white eye sockets and flared out in empty broken holes where the tusks had been chopped away。 Juma pointed out where the great elephant they were trailing had stood while he looked down at the skull and where his trunk had moved it a little way from the place it had rested on the ground and where the points of his tusks had touched the ground beside it。 He showed David the single hole in the big depression in the white bone of forehead and then the four holes close together in the bone around the ear hole。 He grinned at David and at his father and took a 。303 solid from his pocket and fitted the nose into the hole in the bone of the forehead。
〃Here is where Juma wounded the big bull；〃 his father said。 〃This was his asizari。 His friend； really； because he was a big bull too。 He charged and Juma knocked him down and finished him in the ear。〃
Juma was pointing out the scattered bones and how the big bull had walked around among them。 Juma and David's father were both very pleased with what they had found。
〃How long do you suppose he and his friend had been together？〃 David asked his father。
〃I haven't the faintest idea；〃 his father said。 〃Ask Juma。〃
〃You ask him please。〃
His father and Juma spoke together and Juma had looked at David and laughed。
〃Probably four or five times your life he says；〃 David's father told him。 〃He doesn't know or care really。〃
I care； David thought。 I saw him in the moonlight and he was alone but I had Kibo。 Kibo has me too。 The bull wasn't doing anyone any harm and now we've tracked him to where he came to see his dead friend and now we're going to kill him。 It's my fault。 I betrayed him。
Now Juma had worked out the trail and motioned to his father and they started on。
My father doesn't need to kill elephants to live； David thought。 Juma would not have found him if I had not seen him。 He had his chance at him and all he did was wound him and kill his friend。 Kibo and I found him and I never should have told them and I should have kept him secret and had him always and let them stay drunk with their hi his at the beer shamba。 Juma was so drunk we could not wake him。 I'm going to keep everything a secret always。 I'll never tell them anything again。 If they kill him Juma will drink his share of the ivory or just buy himself another god damn wife。 Why didn't you help the elephant when you could？ All you had to do was not go on the second day。 No； that wouldn't have stopped them。 Juma would have gone on。 You never should have told them。 Never； never tell them。 Try and remember that。 Never tell anyone anything ever。 Never tell anyone anything again。
His father waited for him to come up and said very gently； 〃He rested here。 He's not travelling as he was。 We'll be up on him anytime now。〃
〃Fuck elephant hunting；〃 David had said very quietly。
〃What's that？〃 his father asked。
〃Fuck elephant hunting；〃 David said softly。
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〃Be careful you don't fuck it up；〃 his father had said to him and looked at him flatly。
That's one thing； David had thought。 He's not stupid。 He knows all about it now and he will never trust me again。 That's good。 I don't want him to because I'll never ever tell him or anybody anything again never anything again。 Never ever never。
That was where he stopped in the hunt that morning。 He knew he did not have it right yet。 He had not gotten the enormity of the skull as they had come onto it in the forest nor the tunnels underneath it in the earth that the beetles had made and that had been revealed like deserted galleries or catacombs when the elephant had moved the skull。 He had not made the great length of the whitened bones nor how the elephant's tracks had moved around the scene of the killing and how following them he had been able to see