of me； I wish I had his head on my bosom again； I have a good
mind to go to London and marry him。 Am I mad？ Yes； all people who
are as miserable as I am are mad。 I must go to the window and get
some air。 Shall I jump out？ No； it disfigures one so； and the
coroner's inquest lets so many people see it。
〃The air has revived me。 I begin to remember that I have Time on
my side； at any rate。 Nobody knows but me of their secret
meetings in the park the first thing in the morning。 If jealous
old Bashwood； who is slinking and sly enough for anything； tries
to look privately after Armadale； in his own interests； he will
try at the usual time when he goes to the steward's office。 He
knows nothing of Miss Milroy's early habits； and he won't be on
the spot till Armadale has got back to the house。 For another
week to come； I may wait and watch them； and choose my own time
and way of interfering the moment I see a chance of his getting
the better of her hesitation； and making her say Yes。
〃So here I wait； without knowing how things will end with
Midwinter in London； with my purse getting emptier and emptier；
and no appearance so far of any new pupils to fill it； with
Mother Oldershaw certain to insist on having her money back the
moment she knows I have failed； without prospects； friends； or
hopes of any kinda lost woman； if ever there was a lost woman
yet。 Well！ I say it again and again and againI don't care！ Here
I stop； if I sell the clothes off my back； if I hire myself at
the public…house to play to the brutes in the tap…room； here I
stop till the time comes； and I see the way to parting Armadale
and Miss Milroy forever！
〃Seven o'clock。Any signs that the time is coming yet？ I hardly
know； there are signs of a change； at any rate； in my position in
the neighborhood。
〃Two of the oldest and ugliest of the many old and ugly ladies
who took up my case when I left Major Milroy's service have just
called； announcing themselves； with the insufferable impudence of
charitable Englishwomen； as a deputation from my patronesses。 It
seems that the news of my reconciliation with Armadale has spread
from the servants' offices at the great house； and has reached
the town； with this result。
〃It is the unanimous opinion of my 'patronesses' （and the opinion
of Major Milroy also； who has been consulted） that I have acted
with the most inexcusable imprudence in going to Armadale's
house； and in there speaking on friendly terms with a man whose
conduct toward myself has made his name a by…word in the
neighborhood。 My total want of self…respect in this matter has
given rise to a report that I am trading as cleverly as ever on
my good looks； and that I am as likely as not to end in making
Armadale marry me； after all。 My 'patronesses' are； of course；
too charitable to believe this。 They merely feel it necessary to
remonstrate with me in a Christian spirit； and to warn me that
any second and similar imprudence on my part would force all my
best friends in the plate to withdraw the countenance and
protection which I now enjoy。
〃Having addressed me； turn and turn about； in these terms
（evidently all rehearsed beforehand）； my two Gorgon visitors
straightened themselves in their chairs； and looked at me as much
as to say； 'You may often have heard of Virtue； Miss Gwilt； but
we don't believe you ever really saw it in full bloom till we
came and called on you。'
〃Seeing they were bent on provoking me； I kept my temper； and
answered them in my smoothest； sweetest； and most lady…like
manner。 I have noticed that the Christianity of a certain class
of respectable people begins when they open their prayer…books at
eleven o'clock on Sunday morning； and ends when they shut them up
again at one o'clock on Sunday afternoon。 Nothing so astonishes
and insults Christians of this sort as reminding them of their
Christianity on a week…day。 On this hint； as the man says in the
play； I spoke。
〃 'What have I done that is wrong？' I asked； innocently。 'Mr。
Armadale has injured me； and I have been to his house and
forgiven him the injury。 Surely there must be some mistake；
ladies？ You can't have really come here to remonstrate with me in
a Christian spirit for performing an act of Christianity？'
〃The two Gorgons got up。 I firmly believe some women have cats'
tails as well as cats' faces。 I firmly believe the tails of those
two particular cats wagged slowly under their petticoats； and
swelled to four times their proper size。
〃 'Temper we were prepared for； Miss Gwilt；' they said； 'but not
Profanity。 We wish you good…evening。'
〃So they left me； and so 'Miss Gwilt' sinks out of the
patronizing notice of the neighborhood
〃I wonder what will come of this trumpery little quarrel？ One
thing will come of it which I can see already。 The report will
reach Miss Milroy's ears； she will insist on Armadale's
justifying himself； and Armadale will end in satisfying her of
his innocence by making another proposal。 This will be quite
likely to hasten matters between them； at least it would with me。
If I was in her place； I should say to myself； 'I will make sure
of him while I can。' Supposing it doesn't rain to…morrow morning；
I think I will take another early walk in the direction of the
park。
〃Midnight。As I can't take my drops； with a morning walk before
me； I may as well give up all hope of sleeping； and go on with my
diary。 Even with my drops； I doubt if my head would be very quiet
on my pillow to…night。 Since the little excitement of the scene
with my 'lady…patronesses' has worn off； I have been troubled
with misgivings which would leave me but a poor chance； under any
circumstances； of getting much rest。
〃I can't imagine why； but the parting words spoken to Armadale by
that old brute of a lawyer have come back to my mind！ Here they
are； as reported in Mr。 Bashwood's letter： 'Some other person's
curiosity may go on from the point where you （and I） have
stopped； and some other person's hand may let the broad daylight
in yet on Miss Gwilt。'
〃What does he mean by that？ And what did he mean afterward when
he overtook old Bashwood in the drive； by telling him to gratify
his curiosity？ Does this hateful Pedgift actually suppose there
is any chance ？ Ridiculous！ Why； I have only to _look_ at the
feeble old creature； and he daren't lift his little finger unless
I tell him。 _He_ try to pry into my past life； indeed！ Why；
people with ten times his brains； and a hundred times his
courage； hare triedand have left off as wise as they began。
〃I don't know； though； it might have been better if I had kept my
temper when Bashwood was here the other night。 And it might be
better still if I saw him to…morrow； and took him back into my
good graces by giving him something to do for me。 Suppose I tell
him to look after the two Pedgifts； and to discover whether there
is any chance of their attempting to renew their connection with
Armadale？ No such thing is at all likely； but if I gave old
Bashwood this commission； it would flatter his sense of his own
importance to me； and would at the same time serve the excellent
purpose of keeping him out of my way。
〃Thursday morning； nine o'clock。I have just got back from the
park。
〃For once I have proved a true prophet。 There they were together；
at the same early hour； in the same secluded situation among the
trees； and there was miss in full possession of the report of my
visit to the great house； and taking her tone accordingly。
〃After saying one or two things about me； which I promise him not
to forget； Armadale took the way to convince her of his constancy
which I felt beforehand he would be driven to take。 He repeated
his proposal of marriage； with excellent effect this time。 Tears
and kisses and protestations followed； and my late pupil opened
her heart at last； in the most innocent manner。 Home； she
confessed； was getting so miserable to her now that it was only
less miserable than going to school。 Her mother's temper was
becoming more violent and unmanageable every day。 The nurse； who
was the only person with any influence over her； had gone away in
disgust。 Her father was becoming more and more immersed in his
clock； and was made more and more resolute to send her away from
home by the distressing scenes which now took place with her
mother almost day by day。 I waited through these domestic
disclosures on the chance of hearing any plans they might have
for the future discussed between them； and my patience； after no
small exercise of it； was rewarded at last。
〃The first suggestion （as was only natural where such a fool as
Armadale was concerned） came from the girl。
〃She started an idea which I own I had not anticipated。 She
proposed that Armadale should write to her father； and； cleverer
still； she prevented all fear of his blundering by telling him
what he was to say。 He was to express himself as deeply
distressed at his estrangement from the major； and to request
permission to call at the cottage； and say a few words in his own
justification。 That was all。 The letter was not to be sent that
day； for the applicants for the vacant place of Mrs。 Milroy's
nurse were coming； and seeing them and questioning them would put
her father； with his dislike of such things； in no humor to
receive Armadale's application indulgently。 The Friday would be
the day to send the letter； and on the Saturday morning if the
answer was unfortunately not favorable； they might meet again； 'I
don't like deceiving my father； he has always been so kind to me。
And there will be no need to deceive him； Allan； if we can only
make you friends again。' Those were the last words the little
hypocrite said； when I left them。
〃What will the major do？ Saturday morning will show。 I won't
think of it till Saturday morning has come and gone。 They are not
man and wife yet； and again and again I say it； though my brains
are still as helpless as ever； man and wife they shall never be。
〃On my way home again； I caught Bashwood at his breakfast； with
his poor old black tea…pot； and his little penny loaf； and his
one cheap morsel of oily butter； and his darned dirty tablecloth。
It sickens me to think of it。
〃I coaxed and