nstantly； and India and Honey； their pale lashless eyes glowing； followed him about the house。 Even John Wilkes； visibly proud of his son； had no opportunity for quiet conversation with him。
It was the same at supper where they all plied him with questions about the war。 The war！ Who cared about the war？ Scarlett didn’t think Ashley cared very much for that subject either。 He talked at length； laughed frequently and dominated the conversation more completely than she had ever seen him do before； but he seemed to say very little。 He told them jokes and funny stories about friends； talked gaily about makeshifts； making light of hunger and long marches in the rain； and described in detail how General Lee had looked when he rode by on the retreat from Gettysburg and questioned： “Gentlemen； are you Georgia troops？ Well； we can’t get along without you Georgians！”
It seemed to Scarlett that he was talking fervishly to keep them from asking questions he did not want to answer。 When she saw his eyes falter and drop before the long； troubled gaze of his father； a faint worry and bewilderment rose in her as to what was hidden in Ashley’s heart。 But it soon passed； for there was no room in her mind for anything except a radiant happiness and a driving desire to be alone with him。
That radiance lasted until everyone in the circle about the open fire began to yawn； and Mr。 Wilkes and the girls took their departure for the hotel。 Then as Ashley and Melanie and Pittypat and Scarlett mounted the stairs； lighted by Uncle Peter； a chill fell on her spirit。 Until that moment when they stood in the upstairs hall； Ashley had been hers； only hers； even if she had not had a private word with him that whole afternoon。 But now； as she said good night she saw that Melanie’s cheeks were suddenly crimson and she was trembling。 Her eyes were on the carpet and； though she seemed overcome with some frightening emotion； she seemed shyly happy。 Melanie did not even look up when Ashley opened the bedroom door； but sped inside。 Ashley said good night abruptly； and he did not meet Scarlett’s eyes either。
The door closed behind them； leaving Scarlett open mouthed and suddenly desolate。 Ashley was no longer hers。 He was Melanie’s。 And as long as Melanie lived； she could go into rooms with Ashley and close the door—and close out the rest of the world。
Now Ashley was going away； back to Virginia； back to the long marches in the sleet； to hungry bivouacs in the snow； to pain and hardship and to the risk of all the bright beauty of his golden head and proud slender body being blotted out in an instant； like an ant beneath a careless heel。 The past week with its shimmering； dreamlike beauty； its crowded hours of happiness； was gone。
The week had passed swiftly； like a dream； a dream fragrant with the smell of pine boughs and Christmas trees； bright with little candles and home…made tinsel； a dream where minutes flew as rapidly as heartbeats。 Such a breathless week when something within her drove Scarlett with mingled pain and pleasure to pack and cram every minute with incidents to remember after he was gone； happenings which she could examine at leisure in the long months ahead； extracting every morsel of comfort from them—dance； sing； laugh； fetch and carry for Ashley； anticipate his wants； smile when he smiles； be silent when he talks； follow him with your eyes so that each line of his erect body； each lift of his eyebrows； each quirk of his mouth； will be indelibly printed on your mind—for a week goes by so fast and the war goes on forever。
She sat on the divan in the parlor； holding her going…away gift for him in her lap； waiting while he said good…by to Melanie； praying that when he did come down the stairs he would be alone and she might be granted by Heaven a few moments alone with him。 Her ears strained for sounds from upstairs； but the house was oddly still； so still that even the sound of her breathing seemed loud。 Aunt Pittypat was crying into her pillows in her room； for Ashley had told her good…by half an hour before。 No sounds of murmuring voices or of tears came from behind the closed door of Melanie’s bedroom。 It seemed to Scarlett that he had been in that room for hours； and she resented bitterly each moment that he stayed； saying good…by to his wife； for the moments were slipping by so fast and his time was so short。
She thought of all the things she had intended to say to him during this week。 But there had been no opportunity to say them； and she knew now that perhaps she would never have the chance to say them。
Such foolish little things； some of them： “Ashley； you will be careful； won’t you？” “Please don’t get your feet wet。 You take cold so easily。” “Don’t forget to put a newspaper across your chest under your shirt。 It keeps out the wind so well。” But there were other things； more important things she had wanted to say； much more important things she had wanted to hear him say； things she had wanted to read in his eyes； even if he did not speak them。
So many things to say and now there was no time！ Even the few minutes that remained might be snatched away from her if Melanie followed him to the door； to the carriage block。 Why hadn’t she made the opportunity during this last week？ But always； Melanie was at his side； her eyes caressing him adoringly； always friends and neighbors and relatives were in the house and； from morning till night； Ashley was never alone。 Then； at night； the door of the bedroom closed and he was alone with Melanie。 Never once during these last days had he betrayed to Scarlett by one look； one word； anything but the affection a brother might show a sister or a friend； a lifelong friend。 She could not let him go away； perhaps forever； without knowing whether he still loved her。 Then； even if he died； she could nurse the warm comfort of his secret love to the end of her days。
After what seemed an eternity of waiting； she heard the sound of his boots in the bedroom above and the door opening and closing。 She heard him coming down the steps。 Alone！ Thank God for that！ Melanie must be too overcome by the grief of parting to leave her room。 Now she would have him for herself for a few precious minutes。
He came down the steps slowly； his spurs clinking； and she could hear the slap…slap of his saber against his high boots。 When he came into the parlor； his eyes were somber。 He was trying to smile but his face was as white and drawn as a man bleeding from an internal wound。 She rose as he entered； thinking with proprietary pride that he was the handsomest soldier she had ever seen。 His long holster and belt glistened and his silver spurs and scabbard gleamed； from the industrious polishing Uncle Peter had given them。 His new coat did not fit very well； for the tailor had been hurried and some of the seams were awry。 The bright new sheen of the gray coat was sadly at variance with the worn and patched butternut trousers and the scarred boots； but if he had been clothed in silver armor he could not have looked more the shining knight to her。
“Ashley；” she begged abruptly； “may I go to the train with you？”
“Please don’t。 Father and the girls will be there。 And anyway； I’d rather remember you saying good…by to me here than shivering at the depot。 There’s so much to memories。”
Instantly she abandoned her plan。 If India and Honey who disliked her so much were to be present at the leave taking； she would have no chance for a private word。
“Then I won’t go；” she said。 “See； Ashley！ I’ve another present for you。”
A little shy； now that the time had come to give it to him； she unrolled the package。 It was a long yellow sash； made of thick China silk and edged with heavy fringe。 Rhett Butler had brought her a yellow shawl from Havana several months before； a shawl gaudily embroidered with birds and flowers in magenta and blue。 During this last week； she had patiently picked out all the embroidery and cut up the square of silk and stitched it into a sash length。
“Scarlett； it’s beautiful！ Did you make it yourself？ Then I’ll value it all the more。 Put it on me； my dear。 The boys will be green with envy when they see me in the glory of my new coat and sash。”
She wrapped the bright lengths about his slender waist； above his belt； and tied the ends in a lover’s knot。 Melanie might have given him his new coat but this sash was her gift； her own secret guerdon for him to wear into battle； something that would make him remember her every time he looked at it。 She stood back and viewed him with pride； thinking that even Jeb Stuart with his flaunting sash and plume could not look so dashing as her cavalier。
“It’s beautiful；” he repeated； fingering the fringe。 “But I know you’ve cut up a dress or a shawl to make it。 You shouldn’t have done it； Scarlett。 Pretty things are too hard to get these days。”
“Oh； Ashley； I’d—”
She had started to say： I’d cut up my heart for you to wear if you wanted it；” but she finished； “I’d do anything for you！”
“Would you？” he questioned and some of the somber…ness lifted from his face。 “Then； there’s something you can do for me； Scarlett； something that will make my mind easier when I’m away。”
“What is it？” she asked joyfully； ready to promise prodigies。
“Scarlett； will you look after Melanie for me？”
“Look after Melly？”
Her heart sank with bitter disappointment。 So this was something beautiful； something spectacular！ And then anger flared。 This moment was her moment with Ashley； hers alone。 And yet； though Melanie was absent； her pale shadow lay between them。 How could he bring up her name in their moment of farewell？ How could he ask such a thing of her？
He did not notice the disappointment on her face。 As of old； his eyes were looking through her and beyond her； at something else； not seeing her at all。
“Yes； keep an eye on her； take care of her。 She’s so frail and she doesn’t realize it。 She’ll wear herself out nursing and sewing。 And she’s so gentle and timid。 Except for Aunt Pittypat and Uncle Henry and you； she hasn’t a close relative in the world； except the Burrs in Macon and they’re third cousins。 And Aunt Pitty—Scarlett； you know she’s like a child。 And Uncle Henry